Labyrinth

Chapter 18: ...I love you, its ruining my life.

Chapter 18 Calida Pov

It's been few days, and I feel like I'm still in a cell, just a new location. I will admit it, its mostly my fault. I've been avoiding Steve and the rest of the team. Bucky, Nat, and Clint hasn't come back yet. I wonder daily what could've happened, but I refuse to ask. One morning, at breakfast Steve told me Wanda, Kate, and another young woman was sent on assignment by Fury and Loki and Thor had to return to Asgard. So it's only been me, Tony, and Steve here.

Nothing about being here feels like home. I feel more out of place now than I ever did. Steve tries his best to get me to go jogging with him, but I don't want to risk going outside the perimeter I'm allotted, only to have shield agents show up to arrest me. so I sit in my room and read, watch tv and pretend like I don't exist.

There is a knock at my door, and I answer it, knowing already who it is. I open the door and then walk back toward the bed. I climb under the covers and watch as Steves eyes rove over my room before finding me. "why don't you come out with me? there is a great bar not far from here..."

"You're not trying to set me up are you, Steven?"

He smiles, "I wouldn't do that. now get dress and meet me by the elevators in 15."

I meet him in 10 and to my surprise, not that far from the tower there is a few bars, cafes, and restaurants. In the past few years so much has changed in the area. Steve tells me a lot had to be rebuilt due to the damage done by Loki. then I remember his little powe3r trip, his tantrum and all the people hurt and killed, myself included. Not physically but emotionally.

Steve leaves me at a table and goes to order us some drinks. While I was gone, I can't help but think about Loki and how it felt seeing him and Thor for the first time in years. it wasn't the happy reunion I thought it would be. their sibling rivalry had seemed to have gotten worst. Odin of course was the instigator behind it, and I was the only one that couldn't see Loki had changed.

Thor saw it but was still willing to fight for him. Tony told me he thought he was a full tilt diva who just wanted attention. Nat called him a monster and Bruce said he was crazier than a bag full of cats and I cant forget what he did to clint. they all tried to tell me, and I didn't listen. I fell for his easy words, his declarations of love. I gave myself to him thinking he was actually choosing me only for him to use me for my body and to get close to the avengers.

I sigh loudly as Steve set our beers down on the table. He studies my face, "You, okay?"

"Yea." I sip my beer. "its changed." I gesture around the bar.

"Yea. Tony and pepper helped with a lot of that."

I scowl as I think about Tony and our strained relationship. Steve laughs, knowing what I'm thinking says, "you too just needs to talk."

I shake my head, "yea...no...I don't know. I just... what do I say?"

"the truth."

I glare at Steve. "I can't tell you what's on the usb."

"I don't mean about that. he just wants to know that your alright. We all do."

I nod and he ask, "what happened that day? why did you just leave?"

"You know I cant tell you that either."

He sips his beer and says, "I know it had something to do with fury. It had to... just tell me."

I stare at Steve and try to figure out how much does he actually know or is this a trick to get me to spill my guts. I smirk at him. "nice try."

He shrugs, "I hope one day you will actually trust us enough to help you."