FS2:FORCED TO BE PERFECT

CHAPTER 16: Engagement Party

I Gritted my teeth when Jameson came back, I don't think I can survive this night with him. I don't know him anymore. Hindi na siya ang kaibigan ko. He changed alot.

"Kumain kana diyan, Huwag mo akong galitin Luna." He said. Nilapag niya ang tray sa side table ko.

"Ayaw ko. Wala akong gana kumain. Iwan mo ako ayaw kitang makita" Tinalikuran ko siya saka nagtalukbong gamit ang kumot.

I heard a deep long sigh from him. Kasunod ang pagsara ng pinto.

My heart felt heavy, I can feel the clouds raining on me. I cried the whole time until I can't feel anything at all. I'm numb already. Siguro ito talaga ang kapalaran ko.
My eyes red and puffy when I decided to take a bath. I wore my usual clothes, A light blue Pajama set.

"Camilla Luna..I missed you so much" bungad ni Mommy. Kalalabas ko sa banyo nang salubungin niya ako ng yakap.

Kumalas ako sa yakap niya dahil hindi ko maatim na tumagal sa bisig niya. I can't deal with them anymore. Hindi ako makapaniwalang kaya nilang gawin ang mga bagay na ito sa sarili nilang anak.

"Mommy. Please let me go, ayokong magpakasal" I said. Wala akong ganang humiga sa kama.

"No! Sa ayaw at gusto mo, Mag-aayos ka!Lalabas ka roon para sa engagement party niyo! Huwag mo kaming ipahiya Camilla Luna dahil may mga Media. Kung Hindi ka susunod, I will ruin that Boy's Life, And Everyone you know in that Island!" She said, Her eyes were bloodshoted and her breathing is heavy.

All I can hear is the ringing inside my ears, My vision becomes blurry, I can feel my head getting heavy, I can feel my heart wanting to be freed from my ribcage,With my shaking hands I gripped my pillow really hard.

paano nila nalaman?...Matagal naba nila akong minamanmanan sa Isla?... Wait! Everyone in that island treated me like I'm their Family, Hindi ko kayang masira ang buhay nila dahil saakin. And Kian? Hell No! Mas lalong hindi kaya ng konsensya ko dahil His love for me is genuine. I can feel that.

It will broke me into a million of pieces if something bad will happen to them, I know what she can do, May isang salita siya at kaya niya talagang sirain ang buhay ng mga minahal ko sa Isla. I will sacrifice myself for them...

I was trembling, napabalikwas ako kaagad ng bangon, "M-Mommy P-Please, Wag mo sila idamay rito. P-Papayag na ako, M-Mag papakasal na A-ako kay..." I swallowed hard and try finding the next word I need to say, "K-Kay J-Jameson, Just don't ruin thier life...Promise me!"

Her evil laugh echoed, "Madali ka naman palang kausap Camilla Luna, Good thing naglayas ka.Kung hindi wala ka magiging dahilan para pumayag." Lumapit siya saakin, " It's just weird...Nagkagusto ka sa saglit mo palang nakasama, while Jameson is on your side half of your life, How Ironic." She said like she's judging me.

Napabaling nalang ako ng tingin sa pinto dahil may pumasok na hindi man lang kumakatok, I just realized thay might be the make-up artists base sa bitbit nila. And.. I was right as soon as they're done settling down they started making me beautiful. But I can't appreciate my beauty because I know I'm dead inside.

"Wow! Model kaba? Ang ganda mo kase and your body is perfect" The makeup artist asked.

Umiling-iling nalang ako saka ngumiti sakanya, I remembered Asher because of Him, Pareho ay way ng pananalita nila. Nakatikim nanaman ako ng pait sa aking dila. I will do this for them, They become my family. They loved me genuinely. This is the least I can do para masuklian ang kabaitan nila.

Maiintindihan naman siguro ako ni Kian kung bakit ko ginagawa ito. Atleast I felt a genuine love, I got a chance to do what I really love before this tragedy happen.

"Everyone..Lets all welcome my Daughter, Camilla Luna" Mommy said with Enthusiasm.

I force my smiled to show up, Tonight. I'm Forced to be Perfect again for the sake of my Found Family in that small island. I wished to be born again and experience the life there again.

"You Looked wonderful Camilla Luna" Bulong saakin ni Jameson, It's disgusting! Mahigpit niyang pinulupot ang kaliwang kamay niya sa likod ko.

Hindi ko nalang siya pinansin dahil marami ang nakatingin, Nakakabulag din ang mga flash ng Camera saamin.

" We also want to announce our coming wedding, and it will happen as soon as possible. So enjoy the night, Lets all celebrate" Saad ni Jameson Tinaas niya ang hawak niyang wine glass at ginaya naman sakanya ang mga Bisita, There laughter become a irritating noise to my ears.

Humigpit ang pagkakahawak ni Jameson sa aking Bewang, " Ngumiti ka Luna!" madiin niyang bulong saakin.

I can't believe that the person who knew how I suffered being manipulated my entire life, is now one of them.

"Nasasaktan ako Jameson"

"Masasaktan ka talaga kung ipinapakita mong hindi ka masaya. Kaya Ngumiti ka dyan at ipakita mong gustong-gusto mo ang nangyayari!"

I gritted my teeth and tried to relax my breathing holding my tears not to fell.

Ito na ata ang pinaka matagal na oras sa buong buhay ko.

Nakihalubilo kami sa ibang guests at Puro congratulations ang maririnig mo. Pagod akong humiga sa kama, Nakaligo at nakapag bihis na rin ako.

When I was about to sleep I felt my Bed moved, Lumubog ang kabilang side indikasyong may umupo rito. My eyes widened when I saw who it was.

"A-Anong Ginawa mo dito?" I asked, I gripped my blanket tightly.

"Stop with your dramas Luna. Dito ako matutulog" Jameson said.

My heart is pounding so hard, I'm scared what will happen next, Kahit naging kaibigan ko siya ay hindi ko parin alam ang takbo ng isip niya.
My eyes got blurry again, I'm also having a hard time breathing. Tumayo ako dahil mas gugustuhin kong matulog sa sofa kaysa sa tabi niya.

Bumuntong hininga lang siya. Napaigtad ako ng bigla niya akong iangat gamit ang kanyang isang kamay saka hinagis pabalik sa kama.

"ANO BA! HINDI PABA SAPAT NA MAGPAPAKASAL AKO SAYO? HINDI PA TAYO KASAL GANITO NA ANG GINAGAWA MO!"

He Laughed, "Camilla Luna... Matutulog ka lang! Hindi ako ganun kasama para pag-samantalahan ka. Hindi naman kita gagalawin hanggat hindi tayo kasal"

Pilit akong tumayo pero napigilan niya ako, kinulong niya ako sa bisig niya na kahit anong piglas ko ay hindi ko magawang makawala.

"Jameson, I'm begging you Bitiwan mo ako. Naging magkaibigan din naman tayo , Please respect my space" I plead while a bunch of tears are running down to my face.

"Shut Up! Matulog ka dahil hindi mo gugustuhin ang gagawin ko kapag pinagpatuloy mo pa iyan!"

Nasa likuran ko siya habang nakapulupot ang dalawang kamay at legs niya saakin, I can feel his chest at my back. My chest becomes heavy, para akong dinudurog ng paulit-ulit.

I'm so helpless, I don't know if I can still make it out of this situation, If death will be the only way to survive this?... I'll face it with a smile... And If that day will come...I hope Kian wouldn't be heartbroken. I will find him in another time line.