A Specific Butterfly | ShinoGiyuu 🦋🌊

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Shinobu POV

It was for the better. Right? I was doing it for a reason. A good reason. Kanae wanted this. She would've wanted this. It's all for revenge. Everything i do.

I began to mix the ingredients before pouring it into a beaker. I grabbed a syringe from a drawer and extracted a good amount.

It was in. It was all done. It started to take effect. I began to cough repeatedly, i crouched to the floor, desperately catching my breath. I gripped onto my desk for extra support.

I soon got up and managed to put the stuff away, just before anyone came in.

I stumbled over to my bed and collapsed, barely missing the bed.

When i woke up, everything was limited. My vision was blurry, just before i struggled to rub my eyes. I noticed i was covered with a blanket, food sat on the chair opposite my bed, and the lock pick was broken.

Who could have been in here? Did they see my poison? Did they see my condition? Oh god. Oh gosh.

I struggled to get up as i stammered over to the chair, picking up the food to throw it away. Just as i was on my way, i noticed a figure.

"Shinobu-sama!" Aoi panted, rushing through the halls to catch up. The floorboards creaking as she did.

"Ah, Aoi-san!" I said, coughing after. I soon turned to face the worried girl that stood infront of me.

"Im sorry for bothering you... Shinobu-sama.." She paused. "But, you didn't look so good in your room... is.. everything okay..?" She questioned. I gasped.

She was in my room? Did she touch anything? My desk looked pretty clean though.

"Ah, Aoi-san, you worry too much!" I said, patting her head before continuing, "Im perfectly fine, you don't need to worry about me!" I stated.

She gulped before replying, "Okay Shinobu-sama, im glad you're alright. I wont bother you anymore." She stated as she walked down the halls.

Phew.

I dont have anything to worry about if she was the one who was in my room. She'd know better to not touch my stuff.

I continued walking down the halls, finally discarding the food, bringing the tray back to the room as i sat on my desk.

I sighed to myself. Is this seriously a good idea? What would the others think? I need to tell kanao soon. She'll know soon anyways, then everyone's suffering will end. All of it. Especially him. No. He wont be spared. He will suffer most.

Kanae would want this. Wouldn't she?

She would. Why am i doubting kanae? Kanae knows best, and i know she would want this. She knows this is for the best.

I began to take off my haori before putting it ontop of the bed.

Since i didnt have a mission today, i thought taking a break would be nice. For once at least.

It's not anyones fault but mine, i chose this life. But dont worry. It will all have a good cause soon. This was all for kanae, my whole existence is for kanae. I cant give up now. I cant complain. I chose this.

Kanae wanted me to live a normal life. I wanted to listen to her. Why didn't i? Why did i not listen? Why am i disobedient? Why am i so bitter?

I felt a sharp pain in my palms.

Why did i not listen? Its all because of that stupid demon. No. Its my fault. He would've been killed anyways, i dont need to do this. Im just being selfish. Yes. Im a selfish bitter woman.

Warm liquid was gushing out as it trickled down my skin.

What's this? I questioned as i looked down. Oh.

I must've been clenching my fists too hard. So hard that my nails dug into my skin.

"It's fine. I'll just bandage it up. It'll all be alright." I repetitively said to myself, not even noticing i was speaking aloud, as i tried. Tried so hard to block out these negative thoughts.

Thats what Kanae would've wanted. She wants to see me happy, so i'll smile, just for her.