A Specific Butterfly | ShinoGiyuu 🦋🌊

Acquaintances

Tomioka POV

I walked through the forest, a cold breeze hitting my face, and everything I took a slight turn.

What was that? What were these previous interactions with kocho? Why do I keep I reacting like this?

Could this be that love stuff kanroji talks about? But that has to be impossible! Me and kocho are just acquaintances, nothing more.

I mean, I'm pretty sure she feels that way as well. There's no way she could see me as any other.

But. My illness has been increasing ever since that talk we had on the mountain. I also told her I wanted to stay at the mansion till I sorted things out. Should I still go?

I mean, wouldn't it be awkward? Well, I always make everything awkward, so there's no avoiding that, I guess.

Maybe I could just not talk to her at all. Perhaps that would help. But no, she would get mad and scold me or just make fun of me like usual.

I don't know why, but I always feel upset whenever she scolds me. Why do I even feel like this in the first place? I don't even like her like that. So why do I have these kinds of feelings towards my peer? This is highly unprofessional. But I guess it's fine, since I'll never tell her anyway.

Well, I did kind of tell her.. but.. she probably shrugged it off as a disease anyways, thank God.

I don't know how to get rid of these feelings though. Do I just accept them and try talk to her about it? But that would be so embarrassing, and she obviously doesn't feel the same way about me either, so why should I try anyway?

But. I just don't want to suffer alone with these emotions. Perhaps I should talk to kanroji about this. I'm sure she knows better about this whole 'Love' thing she was telling me about, if this is even what it is.

I assure you it's probably going to be a disease, just like I said, and I'm just overthinking, and kanroji would be wrong about this feeling.

《 TIMESKIP 》

I stood in front of the double doors that protected the inside.

I knocked lightly before I waited 10 seconds, just to be greeted by a cheerful girl infront of me.

She gasped. "Hi tomioka-san!!" She squealed as she grabbed my hand. I was shocked at first, but it is what she usually did to her visitors, I guess.

"Come in!" She yelled, directing me further inside her estate as she guided me over to the huge dining hall.

"Would you like anything to drink, tomioka-san?~" She said as she slightly bowed, directing her face near my ear.

I stared as my cheeks began to warm up. "N-no. It's alright." I said, sighing as I let that sentence out. That was so embarrassing...

"Okay!" She said as she pulled out a chair next to me as she sat down.

"So, what seems to be the issue here, Tomioka-san?" She said as she waited. But she then continued, "But!! It doesn't have to uhm- be an issue!!! If you wanted to hangout with me, you can say it!!!" She yelled, covering her face as it was a bright red colour.

I held her hands to reassure it was okay, before moving them and sighing. "Well, I have a problem." I finally confessed as she stared at me blankly.

"What kind of problem? It kind of depends, since I'm not really kocho, haha!" She giggled. Kocho. She said kocho.

I looked up at when she said the name, then looked back down as I noticed I was fidgeting with my fingers on my lap. I looked up as she stared.