A Specific Butterfly | ShinoGiyuu 🦋🌊

Unstoppable Thoughts

Tomioka POV

It was a quiet Sunday today. This whole week has been very confusing. At least for me. Why was kocho acting so strange this week? What has gotten into her? Countless thoughts of our last mission we shared have been wandering through my mind. Why can't I stop thinking of her? What is wrong with me?

Maybe I should go talk to her about it. What?! No! That's so stupid! But. How else should I do it? Because of how much of an introvert I am, I usually have no one to talk to since the hashiras all dislike me. Though, I'm not sure about kocho. Why do I want to talk to her anyway? She probably hates me as much as the others do. I always hear her tone change whenever I ignore her. Could that be anger?

All of this is hurting my head a lot. Perhaps I should go for a walk, I mean, I don't have anything better to do anyways. And i can get some fresh air.

I began walking out of my estate, and the cold and breezy air hit my face. It was nice and refreshing, and it was good. Finally, there is a break from this cruel planet.

Until, I noticed a figure in the distance. It was a person, and they seemed to be running. They were running towards me? Why would they possibly be running towards me??

I moved out of the way as they brushed past me, hitting the ground. I noticed a letter sat next to them. It was now when I realised that that person was mitsuri. Oh God, why did I do that?!

I rushed to her as I held out a hand. "I'm very sorry for the sudden movement, kanroji-san." I apologised, bowing invetween.

She stared up at me as her face formed a peach colour. "Ahh!! It's no problem tomioka-san!!! Thank you!!!" She yelled, grabbing my hand then covering her face as she got up.

I stared at her as I waited for her to tell me what she needed. She soon looked at me after noticing and began to talk.

"Ah, I'm very sorry for the wait tomioka-san!! But, well, I have a letter shinobu-san wanted me to give to you!!" She said, holding her hand out which contained the letter.

I grabbed it and thanked her as she soon left my side. A letter? From kocho? For what? Why was she sending me letters? I opened it,

Hello, tomioka! I imagine you are reading this! Therefore, I'd like to ask politely if we could talk in the forest again and catch up! There are a few things I had missed and had wanted to discuss about with you.

Kind regards, Kocho.

What was this? A meet up? Why did she want to talk to me about 'some things'? My heart soon started to pick up pace. She wanted to talk to someone like me? Alone?!

I rushed back to my estate as I finally decided I would meet up with her. I went over to the kitchen and debated on making something for her. What would she like?! I'm not sure if I know! But, should I ask mitsuri? But wouldn't it be too late?? I don't know what to do!!

After 5 minutes of thinking, I had decided to go to mitsuri's estate to bake somethings with her for kocho. She's good at baking I heard, and I guess it would be a good form of socialising. Socialising. Kocho told me I should do that stuff more often instead of just ignoring people and being alone. She said no girl would want to be with me like that. As if I care about such things. We live in a cruel world where deaths happen all the time, love cannot fit into such a rotten society like ours.

But, something inside me. It always manages to fit inside of me, and it's mainly about kocho. Such weird feelings don't deserve to have access to life inside of me. It should just die already. Why do I feel such things? I shouldn't overthink. I need to focus. This is all for kocho.