After

The Start

As a morning comes, another morning trying to get over her. His first love. Oh how if she knew how he made him feel. It was quite a situation actually. To most it was an unnecessary journey, as most people tend to get over a loved one more fast then he is. He wouldn't let that stop him though, he knew what he wanted. As sad, and heartbroken he was. His best friend was always there to help. His name is Neo. Just as he was lying in his bed, with his sorrow sitting with him, he feels his phone ring. It's Neo.

He immediately picks up the phone. "Hello?" he says to the other end. "Yo twin, what are you doing tonight?" Neo asks. Taking a drastic second to think, even though he knew it would be the same boring night wallowing in self pity. "I'm not doing anything, you know me ha." He says.
"Well can i stay the night?" He asks. So of course he will take that offer, he doesn't really see his best friend that often. As the distance is impeccable. "Yeah sure bro, let me know when you're here." He replies. "Sound, i'll go grab the next bus." He says, ending the phone.

So at least he has some sort of plans to distract his mind from the pity his ex left him in. Which was quite the first time. None of his other friends really bothered with him. He was most definitely in the worst place, but he knew Neo was there for him. No matter what happened. He has been best friends with Neo since the 16th of December last year. It's now July so it has been a fair while. Neo was probably the only person who hadn't switched up on him, or tried to pressure him to regulate his emotions.

Neo was the person who understood that it wasn't as easy for him, as it was for everyone else. He was waiting for Neo to message that he was on his way. He gets a message pop up to his lock screen.
(Millie sent a chat.)
Oh yeah. That's Millie.
She's a good friend of mine, even though we've never met. It's more of an online thing, even though she's in the area, i just don't think i've ever had the right mindset nor courage to meet her in person. She's nice though. She has a beautiful dog. Her dog is called Poppy. I love Poppy.

Neo is now on his way, so he tries to sort out plans for the night, or like a motive some might call it. He thinks to himself, it's been a long while since he drank. Maybe that could help him forget for the night. The night at least. It was a plan, a drink and a smoke. And finally we can work more into our Album. Him and Neo started a rap group/team called z3s productions.
It was going really well, we were working into our first album together, and dropped numerous songs.

I was always not one for rapping online, i was always anxious of it. I don't think i was anxious of the comments people would make i think i was just nervous of my songs being published to the world. But Neo found the courage in me and i dropped a song in the album. About my mum, and how she treated me and my siblings when we were kids. Which i was quite surprised of. Never in a million years would i have released a song alone. So i'm glad he was with me when that happened.

Neo arrives. We get straight out to McDonald's. Then Tesco for drinks. Our plan wasn't to drink at my house, so we went to Bens tree together. If you're wondering who Ben is. Well, that's a story to tell. I was around 10 years old. And once upon a time, well, Ben was my Neo. Ben was my best friend, i called him my brother. Ben was, let's just say, mentally mind trapped. A lot happened to him, too much for a 11 year old boy. He was polish, and his dad was, not the greatest. His mum was lovely and always invited me over, unfortunately a month down the line after Bens 11th birthday, she passed away. Ben was heartbroken, a part of him was missing now. Not even i could fill it. His dad was imprisoned when his mother passed away.

So he had to live with his Grandma Julie. She was gold. She lived round the corner from me at the time. She bought Ben this beautiful BMX, light blue with black patterns. Me and Ben were on a bike ride one day. Came across a little neighbourhood called Lodge Moore. We'd never been here before as it was quite a way away from home. But Ben always loved exploring. There was this tree, that could sit at least 5 people. If you climbed it obviously. Me and Ben sat on the tree for hours. And under the tree was a ditch filled with water. We used to jump in it.

From that day, that was Bens favourite place. We went there everyday. For hours. One night we got off the call. He didn't have a phone like me, so he had to use his Grandmas. He was crying. I asked him what was wrong. He told me his grandma had been rushed to the hospital with his uncle, and passed away. I could only imagine how Ben felt. He's lost everybody. All he has is his junkie ass father, but even he's in jail. I promised him everything would be okay. And we said we'd go to the tree tomorrow. That following morning. I got no call from Ben. I was worried. Hours went by. His uncle called me on his Grandmas phone.

As soon as i picked up. I remember so vividly. Heavy breathing, and panting, like there's just been a war. They found Ben dead. At the tree. Hanging by a black rope. Since that day that tree i called Bens. That was his favourite ever Place.