After

Closer

Everything was different now, despite not completely understanding the feeling. I think i could manage it this time. I had my lesson of what not to have in a relationship. I was going to her house today to meet her parents. By that i mean her father, i'd already met her mother and she was nice. Let's hope i didn't get a 4 hour lecture from her dad about how to treat her though, i tend to laugh in them situations. Well mostly all of the time.

Her mum arrives, and i get in the car. I wasn't really nervous about her dad, i was nervous about her i think. She'd gone from being my best friend to being my partner. Because like an idiot. I fell in love with my best friend. It wasn't all bad though. I mean if anything ever happened between us then at least we'd still be friends after that. Which was a good thing. I hoped.

We got to her house. Her dad was nice. The only thing i could bring myself to say to him was Hello, but i've always had a flare for the dramatics haven't i. We went upstairs, oh i forgot to mention. Her best friend Lucy was also here at the time. She was nice, made me laugh like i've never laughed before. I took a moment to think for a minute. This is actually the happiest i've been in months. Ever since my overdose. It's been haunting me. I thought i'd never feel a positive emotion in my life ever again.

It finally came. The miracle i wanted. It was sent to me. Lucy left the room. However this didn't make it awkward. We just layed back and talked. Talked about everything. I'd never felt so close to another soul before. It felt like she was meant for me in that moment. The more we talked, the more i felt free. I think that moment was the moment i knew that i loved her. If not, was in love.

I knew this relationship was going to change me in every positive way possible.
Let's just hope my friends gave it a chance and saw her in the way that i did. She is the most beautiful girl i've ever seen before. I mean that with all of myself.

I went home that night, around 10:30, her father gave me a lift back in his van. We talked more than the first time i spoke to him. We talked about football, and what teams we supported. Maybe not the best to have a debate between a Manchester United fan and a Liverpool fan. We made jokes around the topic though. I got back home. "So, how'd it go?" my step mother asks. Apart from having a 10 minute story time of how in love i was. "Good." it ended with. She was my only direction from here.

I think i was extremely tired that night because i ended up falling straight asleep. Before i knew it, it was the next day. Today was the day i saw my nana, we don't tend to visit that often but i think we had to more than ever now, as my grandad had passed away a couple months before. I wanted to be there for my nana, she had lost her soulmate, and that is something i could never even imagine. I was unbelievably proud of her though, she fought for her legacy. Hers and my grandads legacy.

I also saw Neo and his girlfriend Isla today. My nana lives in Winterton also, so i was staying the night. Which was exciting because i could tell him in detail of everything that was going well with me and Millie. I think he was happy for me, he always is in everything i do, that's what makes him a good friend.