After

A New Era

2 days later, Millie came round. Wasn't planned or anything she just ended up coming to see me. We just layed and talked like we used to. Listen to music. It was different this time. A lot was. One moment it was like, so vividly able to remember. She got close to me. Consented to me. Then gave herself to me. I didn't want this to change our relationship. I didn't mention it after it happened. I changed the mood. Then again i also didn't want her to think something was wrong. After care was key in a situation like this. Her mum came and picked her up later that night, again. She said she wouldn't say anything to her mum which was good, i couldn't have her mum thinking i was one of them. What a week this week has been for me. So hectic. Chaotic is another way to put it. So much has happened. A sigh of relief is given once i know i can finally rest my head knowing tomorrow is going to be more peaceful.

I didn't see Mill the following day. I had loads of chores to do, and after then i guess i just relaxed. I was bored. Me and Neo were hardly talking. I had made plans to go to Millie's the following day though. I missed going to her house i suppose. My area is just eventful. I thought hers would be worse but it's not. Nothing like mine.
I rest my head on my pillow. I don't even remember trying to fall asleep i just did. Think i had a million and one thoughts that my brain just powered off. Wasn't complaining though. i've had insomnia for the past few months so i'm glad i'm sleeping better.

Was the next day, and i was getting ready for Millie's mum to come pick me up. I was in agony for some reason. Think because it's been so messy this week. Or maybe it was anxiety, as this was the first time since that happened. I needed her to know nothing was wrong. I just didn't want our relationship to revolve around that. I wanted her to know i loved her beyond any of that. We got back anyway. Nothing was as awkward as i thought it'd be. Everything was how it was supposed to be, wasn't like that with any other ex. I just felt at home. There's no better not simple way other than that to describe it.

It got to around evening time, and her mum had just taken her meds to sleep. So i was trying to find a lift home. I sorted it though. My cousin was going to come get me. The last minutes before i left was just conversations, plans for the week and a like 10 minute long goodbye. Normality for me and her though. I hate leaving. I know i'd see her another time though so i wasn't too fussed. I kiss her goodbye and get on the handles of my cousins bike. I hadn't seen him since the incident that happened at my house. So we got straight to talking about it. A couple days down the line it seemed funny to us. Wasn't funny then. Was funny now though.

We get back to mine. And i get a message from Lexi. Oh Lexi's my best friend since year 8. We do a lot together. Shes always kind of been here. We shared the hatred of my ex for a while until i just kind of stopped hating on things, and started letting things be for what they were. She's a good one though. Wouldn't change her. She came to my street party last year. And my nieces birthday party this year. She's always been like a family friend to me. I guess that's just how some things are. I have a lot of people in my life but only some are actually close to me.

I went round to hers for 10 minutes as she lived in the area. Well her dad did, and she was at her dads. She was dating a boy called Jack. Now me and him have the world of history. Let me take you back in time to May. When i was still madly obsessing over my ex. He was a family friend of hers. Still is i believe. Well he went from a family friend to her boyfriend. That did not sit well with me so i.
Yeah. No further details.

We're friends now though, and we made plans to hang out tomorrow which was pretty cool. Was like a double type thing as Millie was tagging along as well. So it was gunna be a good day. My cousin was also sleeping round tonight so i had plans tonight too. The night was a black out blur, i ended up falling asleep. So it rushed to the next morning. I got straight out of bed to get ready. And then headed to the local cafe. I waited on a message from Jack. I was supposed to bike to meet him. So i ended up message Mill until he messaged me back. Millie got ready and Lexi went to go meet her a few roads near her house.
And i biked to Jack. The bike ride was peaceful, apart from almost crashing into a ditch it was pretty okay. I was just thinking mostly.