After

Shes My Best Friend

After a full bottle of Peach Schnapps and monster energy drinks. We finally got back to mine. It was already like midnight, but my dad didn't mind. We got straight upstairs and started planning what song to drop next. Neo had one in mind. The song was called Stan. A song of his past, and his loved ones. A quite emotional type, just like the one i made. We got a preview recorded that night. And posted it on social media. Everyone was gassing the song. He was so excited to drop it. When he gets home i'm sure it will be getting recorded. The whole night we stayed up on our phones. I was snapping Millie for a bit before she headed to sleep.

Then i got a call from my ex. Neo immediately told me to not answer, as i was doing so well with the no contact thing. But my mind thought ahead of me. I answered. We just got talking for a little bit. Then soon ended the conversation with a bye. I think she was just bored. Her new boyfriend mustn't have been answering her or something. The whole night from there was just based of what i was going to do. As i didn't really know. There was no way i could go back to my ex now, and i knew i couldn't as much as i wanted to. I forced them feelings away. Only if there was someone who could take my heart off her hands, and i could be happy.

I didn't think i'd ever move on, i was in love and i didn't know any better. Besides, i'm not really good at the whole meeting new people thing, i can't even meet a friend in the area for crying out loud. Maybe one day a miracle will happen and it will come to me instead of me chasing it. I always liked to think anyway. The morning came. And Neo headed back home to his girlfriends. I was exhausted, as we had been up all night. So i took a quick nap. Before i knew it, it was literally the next day. It was a boring kind of day to be honest, i was mildly hungover and craved a movie type of night.

So that's what i did, i managed to get though 3 Marvel films, both imbetweeners movies, and a full series that night. Besides from not watching half of it. I was too busy talking to my friends, mainly Millie. I think besides Neo, she was my best friend. To say we met online, i don't think she's that bad.
Obviously apart from screen shotting me singing on live videos. that was not okay.

Maybe someday we'd actually meet, and i'd get to know her a little more. Not like that though. That's gross. She's my friend. And i'd never see her that way. Ever.
It comes to the next morning, finally a morning where i'm not hung over. I got a message from Millie later in the afternoon. Telling me she had to walk her dog. And she had only just woken. I wasn't really doing anything that day so i guess i just took it as an opportunity to meet her for the first time. Surprisingly she actually agreed to. I was waiting for her to arrive at my house. There was this long trail that started round the back of my house next to bens tree, that takes us straight to the motorway bridge, i figured we'd be able to see the sunset from all the way up there.

She gets here. As i'm walking out the door like a nobhead i forgot my phone. I'm rushing up the stairs to grab it, she's already outside and i'm taking the piss. Maybe my mind was just making excuses to not go out. I knew i had to at some point. I walk out the door and see her stood by the fence with Poppy. My heart did a really weird thing and i felt, well i don't know how i felt. I can't like her. She's my best friend.

We walk along the trail, straight away just talking to each other, getting to know her better. We got to the bridge. I think we were too early for the sunset. It was exactly 6:52. So it wasn't really a sunset type of time. Especially because it was summer ending. Oh well though. It was still nice to just be with her, talking to her.
Wait. I can't like her, she's my best friend.