After

Journey

I was at my nanas for a while. She was hosting a BBQ for my family. Many people showed so that's a good thing. We all enjoyed our selves. I couldn't really eat anything, my body wouldn't let me for some reason. But what mattered to me was seeing my Nana. I missed her.
I hadn't seen her since around June, when i slept over at her house to keep her company. Then a couple days later at the hospital. This was the only time i've seen her smile since grandad died.

The family gathering had ended, and i started walking round to Neo's girlfriends.
Wasn't a very eventful walk, but it was nostalgic walking through the neighbourhood i grew up in. So i guess there was that. I arrived at Isla's. Was my first time meeting her too. She's carrying Neo's baby too. I'm proud of both of them.
Unbelievably proud. I stayed there for 2 nights. It was fun. It got to the morning of me heading home. Well i was supposed to but then the plan changed and i was getting dropped off at Millie's house. We all got in the car. Somehow i ended up in the front seat but. I didn't mind it.

We got to Millie's, she comes outside to the car. Neo and Isla say hi. Hopefully they liked this one, their thoughts on my ex wasn't the very best. But they liked this one. I hoped. We got back inside. I was extremely tired for some reason, and hungover. Millie didn't really like me drinking, not to mention the drugs as-well.
But she did her very best to help, and loved me even so. That was something to be thankful for. This was another day getting to know her i guess. This was the first time being alone with each other since we got into a relationship. Wasn't awkward, it was peaceful. It was just. Me and her. I loved it that way. I really did.

I didn't see her for 4 days after that day. We made it so where we still was able to see our friends. So that's what she was up to for most of that time i guess. I think the longer we were together the closer we would be. A new day was another day, but i'd know more about her. So hopefully it stayed this way, because quite simply, there is nobody else i'd rather spend my life with. The day i went, 4 days later.
There was something about this one that was different, i felt closer to her than i had before. Which was weird, i was always made to believe nobody could ever be close to me, that i was poison to everything i touch. That wasn't the case anymore. She made me, me.

She'd never had an actual relationship before. So i was kinda the first boy she'd ever looked at that way. I was glad but also scared because i knew what this meant. I don't think she knew how to do a relationship. She was doing her best though. For me to be her first, she wasn't bad. She was easy to talk to, after the day i met her she was all i thought about. She'd never kissed someone either. Until me. That day anyway. It wasn't an uncomfortable thing. It felt right. It felt right with her.

I saw her again a few days after that, but she was with Taneesha again. Wasn't a bad thing, she was quite the laugh too.
That day we had planned to see each other the next day. I guess something just came up and she got grounded. So all i would do is work on music. Until a night came. I had drank obviously. I think my drinking was getting really bad, i didn't know how to change it. The alcohol had control over me and made me say things i wouldn't usually say. Me and Millie had our first argument.

We almost broke up, Neo tried to save it, and i pushed him away. I pushed away my best friend. He removed me that day.