Joshifer: It's Gotta Be Love

Chapter 12 - Better Idea?

~Jennifer's POV

We packed everything and we both went to the car. We drove to the cemetery where Jo was buried. 

I'm not really emotionally prepared for what we were doing, but I thought that I needed to do this.

Plus, Gregory said that I could visit anytime.

We got to the cemetery. To be honest, I thought that there would be a lot of people, but surprisingly, Josh and I were the only people who were, well, alive there.

There was someone who was selling flowers at the entrance, so I decided to buy a bouquet of flowers for Jo. I also made sure that there were no pink flowers or else she'll haunt me in my sleep.

Seriously, she said that once.

I started walking towards her tomb. Josh followed me from behind. I almost forgot where it was, but then I eventually found it.

And there she was, six feet under the ground.

I knelt down and placed the bouquet on her tomb.

"So this is Jo right now?" Josh asked me.

"Yup. Six feet. Under the ground, that is."

"I'm sorry." He said.

"It's okay. It's been five years, anyway."

"She must be a really nice girl."

"She is, believe me. She's one of my very best friends, too."

"Are the people surrounding her her family?"

"No. Just Ellie. See? Right beside her. She was one of Jo's closest cousins, too. Jo told me that she got hit and that the man who hit her never really admitted who he was."

"That's unfair."

"That's what Jo also said." I did a sigh. "Hey, Josh, do you want to say hi to her or should I introduce you to her?"

"Maybe let's do a little bit of both."

I smiled at what he said then I started talking. "Hey, Jo. It's Jen. I'm sorry that I only visited now. To be honest, I still can't get over you dying 5 years ago. You were too young. You were supposed to have a bigger life ahead of you. Oh, by the way, I won an award today. I dedicated it to you. And guess who gave the trophy to me? It's the guy standing next to me."

"Hi, Jo." He said while waving his hand. "My name's Josh Hutcherson. Well, you can call me Josh."

"Yeah. Anyway, don't you think he's good looking? To be honest, we've only met, but I think I really like this guy. Do you think he's the right one for me?"

"Jo, I really like your friend a lot. Is it okay if we date?"

I laughed at what he said. "Who am I kidding? We're not going to hear her reply." I said, then a tear started falling out of my eye. I wiped the tear, but it just led to more tears, and I was already sobbing. Josh wrapped his arms around me and I started crying on his shoulder.

I miss Jo so much. I want to talk to her about everything.

"It's okay." He said, trying to comfort me. I continued crying. We then pulled apart.

"I'll give you two some privacy. I'll be in the car." He said, and I nodded. He then started going back to the car. I waited until he was far away until I started speaking again.

"Jo, I know you know you Josh is, and I know you also know what happened to him. To be honest, I still feel so guilty, Jo. That's why I can't get over your death until now. The thing is, you're the only person I could talk to about your death and Josh's amnesia, but I know you're no longer alive and that I can't talk to you anymore. Well, I could, but I won't hear your silver lining line that you always tell me when I'm feeling down so I can cheer myself up, or feel the hug you would give me whenever we would see each other again. I miss you so much, Jo. You're my best friend."