Yes, we all exist: fluff and giggles

Before you came along

When Sam and I first met and he was still calling me Jade and he was alone when his dad was gone and Dean was supposed to be watching him he would tell me stories about himself and Dean. It had been one of those times that he and Dean had gotten into an argument which is why he was telling me another story of another time they got into an argument.

I'm sorry Sammy. I started. It's ok Jade I have you. I told him to tell me one that had a happy ending. Define happy ending? He had teased me. Sammy you know what I mean. I rolled my eyes back at him. Um let me think Dean and I get into a lot of arguments.

We say things we through things things get broken you know the drill. We say I hate you and we stomp off to our respected corners or different areas of wherever we can storm off to and give each other some space. Which is hard when dad is always away and we're sometimes climbing the walls.

But hey I have you and I have Sully. So it's not like I'm alone. This one time Bobby had made Dean this little toy car and we argued over it. I wanted to play with it and he's taller than me and I'm the little brother. And it sucks. Sammy? I picked up an eyebrow. Sorry it stinks better? Go on I encouraged.

He wasn't using it so I wanted to play with it. You know how it goes it's mine I want it if I can't have it no one can and I you know dropped it on the ground and stormed off into the bathroom and shut and locked the door. I said I hate you to him and he parroted back that he hated me too.

Sammy you know he didn't mean it and you didn't mean it either. I know and I don't he shook his head. Good I know you didn't. And you know he didn't mean it either. I know and we worked it out. It's just hard sometimes having us both only just us two alone. And I hate.... I cleared my throat.

Sorry I strongly dislike that we're always left alone all the time while dad is off doing who knows what for hours on end and we never know when we're gonna see him again and Pastor Jim or Bobby check in on us and I strongly dislike that you can't stay here with me.

I know Sammy I'm sorry but maybe someday. When we're older. Do you have any siblings Jade? Not any biological ones where I'm at right now but in general my biological ones they have no idea I exist. Though I'm always closer than they think. Why not? Why not what?

Why don't they know you exist? Because it's complicated and kind of a dangerous situation. Well maybe not dangerous but I can't talk about it right now until I'm told I can. But I will always be here when you call for me. I promise. Continue you were both mad both said you hate each other what happened next?

Well Dean was pretty upset I'd accidently broken his little toy car Bobby gave him said he'd played with it when he was Dean's age. I'd imagine so. Dean loves cars. But that doesn't mean he doesn't love you any less even if you guys say you hate each other. Next? I asked him.

Well IDK what happened on Dean's end but I spent hours in the bathroom crying my eyes out. Eventually I unlocked the door and went to my bed that I was staying in at the motel of the week. While Dean read his comic book and watched T.V. he was ignoring me on purpose as I waddled past him and into bed.

Which was fine with me I was upset with him still too. I was still sniffling trying to keep calm I didn't want anything to do with him right now and vice versa. I pulled the sheet up over my head and laid still. I heard Dean *sigh* like he was annoyed with me but then the next *sigh* sounded like he was ready to give up and make up.

I don't think any of us were mad anymore we'd spent hours apart from each other calming down. And it's not like he had to guess what I'd done in there I'd cried the whole time. That's how our arguments go. We yell and scream at each other say we hate each other go in our corners for a couple hours cry angry/sad tears.