His Lost Heartbeat

Chapter 21( Flashback)

To kya aapka bhi Bondita ko pasand karna galat nhi hota .

He stood up from his chair and walked towards the window. Soft wind ruffled through the curtain caressing his face. Soft glow of moonlight was illuminating the ground outside the window. His mind drifted back to towards the serene face of Bondita washed in the moonlight. His eyes fixed on the moon , the witness of one of most difficult nights of their life. A night in which their emotions were unguarded . Night of craving, night of longing, night of affection and the Night of separation.

Flashback

Packing ho gayi ,Bondita " He tried to start the conversation as soon as he entered in her room.

"Ha" She didn't glanced at him and continued to zip up her bags after completing last minute packing. From last few days she had been distant from him as if she was trying to ignore him. Today she actually ignored him. Whole day she kept herself busy with one or another person be it Her mother, Her aunt( Mami) , Thaku Maa( who had arrived to meet her ) ,Kaka , Baba, Som , Batuk , Bihari ,Koyeli . She even went to met her sister and her in-laws .But not for once she thought to come to him. He even called her many times but everytime she sent koyeli to him.

He looked towards the clock which was going to strike 11 pm in five minutes. He drew a deep breath to subside the sharp pang of his heart.

Just few hours and then he will not be able to see his Bondita for years. Even the last day with her had gone and he was not able to spend a second with her.

Night is still there. He still had few hours with her.

He walked towards the wardrobe and felt her getting stilled. He paused for a second, sensing the absence of jingling of her bangles. He turned his head slightly to look at her whose back was facing him. Though jingling of her bangles continued , He could sense the tension in her shoulders.

It had been long since they slept together. Not since they had elaborate conversation about certain things. Though their most routine remained same ,still there was subtle change in their routine. Avoid sleeping together was one of them.

Anirudh was never the first one to initiate any physical contact between them.It was always Bondita. However after their conversation she too avoid any such contact.

He never admitted to himself but he kind of missed his old careless Bondita. He took a deep breath and opened the wardrobe.

"Mere Kapde kaha hai, Bondita" He asked when he noticed the absence of his clothes. The emptiness of the wardrobe seemed to highlight the hollowness of his soul.

"Aapke kamre me rakhwa diye." She replied without looking at him, pretending to be busy in checking and rechecking her already packed luggage.

She felt his gaze lingering on her but she didn't dare to look at him. If she would look then all her pretence of bravery would evaporate. All her understanding would crumble down and she would say her heart out aloud.

She didn't want to go. Not now .Not ever. She didn't want to live without him , not even for a second, forget about years. However she kept these thoughts to herself, pretending to be happy with this new arrangement. However as the day of departure was arriving,it became difficult for her to maintain this pretence and today it was impossible.

Just few hours then she would be away from him and she could cry her heart out. She drew a deep breath to stop adamant tears who couldn't wait for few hours.

"Pati babu ke jane tak ka intezar to karo" She mentally spoke to her tears.

"Mai kapde badel kar aata hu " She heard him spoke . She looked up at nothing at particular.