How I feel about my bestfriend

A new chapter: My journey beyond friendship

Life has a funny way of throwing curveballs at you, doesn't it? One minute, you're cruising along in the fast lane with your best friend, and the next, you find yourself navigating the winding roads of emotions, friendships, and unexpected changes. So, let me take you on a little journey through my thoughts and experiences as I grapple with my best friend's engagement and my own quest for love or maybe just a little adventure. Let's start the big new my best friend is engaged. Yep, you heard that right! I just found today it had said it on his Instagram stories. I am happy for him, and I am also kinda sad because I never told him how I feel about him. I found myself in a whirlwind of mixed emotions. It's not that I was jealous or anything far from it. I genuinely wanted him to be happy. But I couldn't help but feel like a chapter of our story was closing. We had been through so much together, and suddenly, I was being thrust into this new role, the supportive friend, the cheerleader from the sidelines. I was okay with it, or at least I told myself I was. But deep down, I couldn't shake the feeling that things were changing, and I wasn't sure how to handle it. Now, here's where it gets a bit complicated. You see, my best friend and I has this tight knit group of buddies, and they're always being a bit overzealous when it comes to our friendship. They'd often joke about how we'd make the perfect couple, nudging me to think there was something more between us than just friendship. At first, I brushed it off, but after hearing it so many times, I started to wonder if maybe they were onto something. Did I have feelings for my best friend? I don't know, maybe I did one time, I'm not sure. The idea still lingered in the back of my mind, gnawing at me like a persistent itch. I mean, we had shared so many laughs, deep conversations, and those late-night talks where you spill your heart out. It was easy to confuse that closeness for something deeper. But as I swiped through dating apps, I began to realize something, I wasn't in love with him, well not in the way. Dating apps, man. What a mixed bag of emotions that experience can be! One moment, you're swiping right on a cute profile, and the next, you're staring at a picture of someone who looks like they just rolled out of bed. But amidst all the chaos, I discovered something profound; I was ready to explore the world beyond my friendship. As I sat there, scrolling through profiles, I had a lightbulb moment. I didn't need to be in love with my best friend to appreciate our bond. I had been so caught up in what others thought and the idea of unrequited love that I lost sight of what was real. I realized that our friendship was special in its own right, and it didn't need to morph into something romantic to hold value. Armed with this newfound clarity, I decided it was time to step out of my comfort zone. I wanted to see what life had to offer beyond my small circle. So, I put my phone down, took a deep breath, and made aa promise to myself; I would go out and explore, meet new people, and embrace whatever adventures came my way. I am thinking about going on a trip for 31 days maybe in one or two years from now and see the world in the UK. Maybe I would move there. I am thinking about taking more salsa because I want to learn more salsa dances. Let me tell you, I have two left feet, but there's something liberating about stumbling around a dance floor, laughing at myself and the awkwardness of it all lol. It was a breath of fresh air, and I could feel the weightlifting off my shoulders. And so, here I am, standing at the crossroads of friendship and personal growth. My best friend is off on his own adventure, and I'm setting out on mine. Like finishing college and going to new places and meeting new people. I'm not saying goodbye forever; I'm just closing this chapter for now. I will still text him here and there. Who knows what the future holds? Maybe I'll find love in the most unexpected places not going to lie i want that to happen lol, or maybe I'll simply find myself in the process. To see what I really want to do in my life and putting myself first and to see where life would take me. You know that life is unpredictable, and that's what makes it exciting. I might update this story one day, maybe not I don't know, I can't say for now. I might start a new story one day, sharing tales of new friendships, romantic escapades, or even more dance floor disasters that having me end up on the floor laughing at myself. Butt for now, I'm content with where I am. So, if you're reading this, thank you so much it means a lot to me for joining me on this little journey. Feel free to check out my other stories, where I'll share more of my adventure, mishaps, and musings. And writing about the white wolf, in between two, my story and others. Until then, here's to new beginnings and the beautiful chaos that is life. Goodbye for now! On how I feel about my bestfriend.