𝐄𝐐𝐔𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 ♡

| CHAPTER 42 |

For the last few months, I've felt lost, like I'm not really myself anymore.

Something's missing inside me, like a part of my heart has gone cold.

Every night, I find myself standing by the balcony, looking into the dark, thinking about her.

Sometimes, late at night, I see her studying in her room, her window open just a little. I can't help but watch her from afar.

It's like admiring the moon-something distant, beautiful, and untouchable. But unlike the moon, she is my Ruh, and now all I do is wonder what happened between us.

The 11 final exams came and went, and it was easy to avoid her during those two months of preparation.

But when she went to Mumbai for two months, it was different. I couldn't stop thinking about her.

The absence of her presence, her voice, it made everything feel so empty.

I couldn't even bring myself to ask her about our annual day-the day I have to confessed my feelings but stopped short. I wasn't able to ask her about her and Varun. Maybe I was afraid of what she might say, maybe I was scared of the truth.

I just want to pretend that it never had happened but sometimes, I can't myself think that there is something between Ruh and Varun. I know her, I can read her eyes.

What if the truth isn't what I think it is? What if everything I've believed about us was wrong?

•••••

I stand at the balcony again, the cool breeze brushing against my face. It's almost midnight. As usual, I glance toward her window, and to my surprise, it's open. I watch her as she sits there, her back to the window, looking down at something in her hands.

She looks so.....far away, so distant. Then, suddenly, I see her shoulders shake. She's crying.

My heart clenches. Why is she crying? Is it something I did? Could it be because of me? The thought lingers, and I feel helpless. I remember her face when I called her by her name. I really cursed myself for hurting her.

But she wipes her tears quickly and turns off the light. I don't know why, but I feel a strange pain in my chest. Before I can think any further, she closes the window.

I quickly hid behind the door, holding my breath, waiting for her to finish.

When I hear the soft click of her window closing, I let out a sigh of relief.

•••••

I go back to my room, but just as I'm about to lie down, I hear voices. A murmuring sound. I frown. The voices grow louder, and then I hear my family talking.

I open the door, and to my surprise, I find everyone gathered in my room. They all look at me with big smiles.

"What happened, guys?" I ask, confused.