Cortés, Quetzals and growing up Guatemalan

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This is Anita
We got a phone call yesterday from the department of immigration. The worst possible thing that could have happened, happened. Juan's request for citizenship (I think that's what it was, I'm not sure. It might have been for a more permanent visa) was denied. He was told he has to leave the country and go back to Guatemala. Juan has 3 days left. He has decided that our country is no place for a 2 year old baby girl. Especially since he would work the entire time and there would be no one to take care of Anita, as he has no good relatives there and most of mine would not be able to afford taking care of her. After three hours of talking and figuring out things he has decided to leave Anita here with me and Zack. We will take care of her/raise her until he can come bak here. Who knows when that will be. I am so scared, he might not be able to come back for years! He will miss important milestones in her life :(
What if something bad happens to him in Guatemala?? Are me and Zack ready to become "parents"? There are some of the many questions and thoughts going crazy in my head.
I am still young and in university and Zack works, how will we even raise a child ?
I have so many doubts and I am so scared, if I could I would have my mother take her in (She has risen children before, I have not) but Juan does not like my mother much so he would not like that. ( that's a story for another day)
I guess we will just rise to the occasion and try this out.
Haha it's sorta like a trial run to see if we would make good parents or not. But seriously jokes aside, this could be a whole lot worse, she is two now and all of the early stuff like diapers, formula, crying and not sleeping though the night is all over so that's good I guess. However, she is fully invested in the whole 'terrible twos' thing. Ay dios, with her behavior wish me luck!!!