Once in a Lifetime {BxB English}

🖤 Chapter 30

Kash, seeing Anna's name with a heart on Ody's screen, waited to see what he would do.

But Ody just sat there, his gaze stuck to the side while his shirt was pushed up to his neck, leaving his chest bare.

The phone stopped ringing. He pulled his shirt back down and sat up straighter on the couch.

"What did we do?" he asked, sounding lost.

Kash immediately understood that he regretted it. "You didn't like it?" he asked gently, holding his gaze.

"It doesn't matter if I liked it. I—I have a girlfriend. I'm in a relationship. It's not right to do this to her" Ody said, staring into the void.

"Do you regret it?" Kash asked, and Ody turned to look at him, hesitating before answering.

"It's not right..."

"If you didn't have a girlfriend... would you still regret it?"

Ody dropped his gaze, looking shy as he thought about the feeling of Kash's kiss and his touch.

"No" he admitted softly, without looking up, as a small smile formed on Kash's lips.

"That's good enough for me" he said as he grabbed his shirt and put it back on.

"You're leaving?"

"You need time" he said, standing up.

"Time for what?"

"To realize what's happening to you" he replied, making Ody's eyes widen.

"W-what do you mean?"

Kash started walking toward the door. "I went through this stage too" he said, glancing back at Ody, who looked completely lost. "Good night" He opened the door and left.

Ody sat there, staring blankly, replaying Kash's words in his head.

To realize what's happening to me?...

His confused thoughts made him unlock his phone and go to an adult site. He started searching for videos of two men together, trying to figure out if it was something he liked watching or not. At first, it all felt so foreign, but as he watched them kiss and touch, his breathing grew heavier. When they moved on to the actual act, he quickly exited the site and put his phone down. It was something new, strange, completely unfamiliar to him.

He switched to videos of straight couples, like he usually did. He liked what he saw. So then why? What was happening to him? Did he like both? That means that...

No. No. How could he have gone 21 years without realizing anything? Or maybe he never had the chance?

When he first met Mano, he thought he was a good-looking guy. But as he got to know him, he started to like him. It was just friendly, though... wasn't it?

If it was just friendly, then why did I kiss him?

He shut his phone off and tossed it onto the couch before turning onto his stomach, trying to stop his mind from spinning.

Sunday had arrived, and Ody was getting ready for the coffee he had planned with Mano.

He had spoken to Anna a little later the night before and told her he hadn't heard his phone ringing.

He got dressed and headed downstairs, just as Mano pulled up on his motorcycle. He took off his helmet and looked at him.

"Hey" Mano greeted first.

"Hey" Ody said, stepping closer.

"Where do you wanna go?"

"How about Kallithea?"