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After you picked up your luggage from blue lock you left for your hotel. On your journey to the hotel, you tried to peel your thoughts away from what had happened in Kaiser's room and how you were there in the first place. You placed your luggage in the room and lay down on the bed.

Addy had called you twice when you were asleep. You and addy had drifted apart a little, due to the fact that both of you got a lot more busy, and addy especially because of her financial situation. You called her back, and unsurprisingly, she picked up.

"Hey addy.. I miss you. I was asleep when  you called.", you told her.

"Miss you too.. and uh.. hey.. I called because I have some.. really... big news..", she said, her tone a mix of fear and longing.

"Hey you alright? What is it what's wrong?"

"My dad.. he's like.. really sick.. he needs a liver transplant.. the bad situation with money got to him and he picked up a back habit of drinking.. and now he has no liver..", addy broke down, sobbing over the phone. You, on the other hand, were too stunned to speak. You basically addy's dad to be your own father. Now he was in the brink of death and you were on the opposite side if the world. Your mouth opened to say words but your breath hitched and held back.

"How do I..  respond.. this is.. I.. ", tears were streaming down your face. You were just sitting on tour bed now, looking confused, as tears just uncontrollably ly flew down. You were not this worried about yourself when you had cancer of all things for a few months but this..  it was different.

"I dont know what to do anymore y/n.. my mom..  I found ropes on her bed.. roped handing from her ceiling..  I've had to send her to a care centre..  where she wont have the access to that kind of stuff.."

That was the breaking point. Your sould had been ripped in half. Your nose was completely blocked from all the crying. Hair stuck to your tear stained face, your eyes as red as roses.

You sobbed with addy.. not caring about anything. The sight of the crying was crazy.. hysterical even. A stranger walking by couldnt just feel something as measly as pity for you.

"Addy.. why.. when I turn my life upright.. everything pushes it back down again.. why did she even try?", you asked, already knowing the answer in your head but not willing to accept it.

"She doesn't feel like she has a purpose to life if my dad isnt here. Its admirable from another person's perspective but..  not from ours.. she doesn't think she has another reason to live right now. It kinda stings because I should be that other reason.. so should you.. ", she said on the other line, clenching her fists, and crying, biting her lip to hold back unfiltered cries.

"I knew it.. why does she think so low of herself... shes perfect..  and she has us.. so why.."

"Would you be able to fly over here for your two week break you were telling me about..? I could really use it..  I'll pay-"

That's it. You lost it. She would pay? Not a chance. You didnt even let her finish.

"First of all, you didnt even need to ask after the first word you said on this call..  I was planning on coming after.. after all.. all that. Second of all you're not fucking paying. Keep your ass glued to your seat and I'll take the next flight."

"You sure? You seemed serious about wanting to study seriously during your break.", addy reminded you.

"Addy my college means nothing to me. I mean.. not as much as you guys. Never ever. Please just stay put.. dont do anything..", you said hurriedly.

Addy didnt respond but you knew she was probably nodding frantically.

Addy cut the call and you put the phone down beside you. You fell back onto the bed and started crying into the pillows, losing track of time. You turned your phone on again after a while and it had already been an hour since you had heard of the devastating news. You quietly started sobbing again, just looking at the wallpaper of your phone, a picture of you and addy with her parents holding the two of you. Her dad carrying her and her mom hugging you from behind and smiling at the camera, her chin rested on your shoulder, as you gripped her arms from the front. You were in denial. You let out an occasional whimper at the happy memories together. At least they arent dead right?

"Hey.", you picked up the facetime from bachira and isagi, who were together right now, trying your best to mask your feelings.

Not just isagi and bachira, but otoya and some others too. They seem to be hanging out at a bowling alley.

"What's wrong?", isagi asked, pulling the phone away from bachira and giving him an annoyed look as he whined. He walked towards a corner and waited for four response. There was no point arguing, he knew you well enough to figure out that everything in your life was wrong right now.

"..take your time.. I get it. Whatever it is.. you're upset because just when you think you've got life figured out, something fucks it up.", he continued.

You couldnt talk, the words were stuck in your throat, forming a painful lump as you  hoked out sobs again, and sniffles loudly. Finally you mustered up the voice to speak.

"Isagi.. I need you right now.. I need someone to cry on.. someone to talk to.. to knock some fucking reason and reality into my god forsaken head."

"Dont put yourself down like that. That's was you always tell me. To never put myself down. But here you are, going against your own words. You need to calm down and tell me what's going on for me to help you."

"Addy.. her family has been in a bad situation financially. Her dad became stressed because of it and developed a drinking habit.. his liver is ruined now and he needs a transplant. Her mother, isnt able to accept her situation and attempted.. attempted to..", your voice trailed off. Not just her mother. Your mother too. That's what she had told you.

"To.. off herself?..", isagi stated, with shock written all over his face.

'..yeah.. but there are no flights to Europe right now.. I can't get there.. they're all booked.. the only ones I'm seeing are for next month. I checked during my call with Addy. I gave her false hope.."

"..and that's only gonna ruin her more..  you know it.."

"..so I just fucked up worse than a human ever could."

"Hold up. Send me the address ot your hotel. I'm coming over."

"..thank you so much.."

"Anything, anytime.", he smiled softly at you and ended the facetime. You were debating whether or not you should tell Kaiser.

'Later.'

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Word count: 1190

A/n: nah but why does life always start sucking again just when you've managed to become happy like I'm not even joking right now.