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"Kaiser..." you whispered to yourself

"Wait Addy, why are you excited??"

"What? For you of course"

"For me? Why? Wasn't he being rude to you before we took off?"

"Uuuuuuh mistakes can be forgiven"

"I'm disappointed in you Addy"

"Also y/n, Isagi called me a while back. He's worried about you. Apparently you haven't been answering his texts? He wants to talk to you about what's going on in Blue Lock"

"Ah... I'm not in the right mindset and I don't want to be rude to him. I'll reply soon... just... not now.."

"Ok... take your time. I'll tell him for you?"

"Yeah that would help a lot. Thanks Addy."

"Also why are you not squealing, jumping around and giggling right now. Your crush, Kaiser, is right there."

"I..-"

Addy had started pulling you towards Michael Kaiser, in delusional hopes that he would magically not remember, and forget who you guys are, so that she could get his autograph for you, and as much as she would hate to admit, but for herself as well. 

"Excuse me" Addy choked as she appeared behind Kaiser 

"Addy what the fuck no please stop let me go-" you spoke desperately.

Such a pity, that Addy's delusions did not come true 

"Its you" he looked you up and down in the terrible state you were in "hello."

"h-hi? Pleasure to meet you...? I was hoping I could apologize for what happened before the flight took off"

Addy stamped your foot firmly. She was looking at you weird. How weren't you excited to talk to the person you loved so much?

"Ouch"

"Well... sir, what my friend here means to say is the past is past and that there's nothing to hold against. It was just a few mean words.'

'...I don't care about that... but sure. I'll take two imbeciles apologizing'

"Excuse you? What imbeciles are we talking about here?" You said, with a little bit of rage rising inside you. Addy stepped your foot again.

"Can we get your-" Addy was cut off by you pulling her away

"HEY Y/N WHAT WAS THAT FOR"

You heard footsteps close by. Turning to your right, you saw the same hooded figure speedwalk past. With all this in your head right now, the last thing you'd do is to be fangirling over Michael Kaiser. 

"Addy, we're leaving now. Our baggage is here too. I mean it by the way."

"ok-"

You collected your baggage and made your way to the hotel that was booked for you and Addy. 

'Y/n sweetheart, are you really going to go further than this? I already warned you not to'

Your heart was thumping. You were sweating. Your face was turning red. You were panting, struggling to breathe. Addy caught you in her arms and sat you down on the couch in the waiting lounge of the hotel. 

"y/n? Please tell me what's happening, I can't bear seeing you like this"

"My heart's beating extremely fast and I'm not able to breathe..." you were gasping for air

"Y/n just don't talk for now" Addy clarified. "tell me later... when you're ok"

Addy checked in for the two of you. You became alright again. 

Truth is, there was always this voice in you, like there was or is in everybody else as well. This voice, gave you criticism, care, and everything in between. This 'voice' that we hear, is there for us, and for us only. Its nobody else's business what your voice inside you says. Y/n always knew this. But there was something else, that gave her warnings.

This has happened to you once when you were a kid. You were getting cases similar to panic attacks and the like. You were only eleven at the time. This was a time when you had a bunch of friends, who you were not able to put your trust in. Something in you, most probably this voice, or your gut, always told you to stay away from those friends. But you were already attached. Alas, heartbreak was clear in the end. These 'friends' ganged up on you, and bullied you. You were no longer able to trust entirely. You were no longer able to look at anyone, even Addy, as a shoulder to cry on. You had nobody. Nobody to trust. This 'voice' has only gotten stronger since then and you knew it. You could not exactly pinpoint what it was, but you knew it just wasn't a voice. 

But now, you were recollecting the bit of light in your life. That light was the fact that you never gave up. Never stopped trying. You always knew there would be something that could help you in dark times in the future. On top of all this, you managed to remain social, and kind. You were always kind of proud that you were able to achieve such a mature state despite everything. But, that wasn't the only light.

There was another-

'That Michael goddamn Kaiser. I look up to him. I love him. He made me feel optimistic, and happy. It sounds almost impossible from someone with that kind of an attitude.' you thought to yourself.

'A love and an obsession. One tale with two tragedies. 

When in love, one tends to treat the other with utmost respect, care and kindness. When one is obsessed... they go so deep into a pit... of no return-'

"Y/n?" a faint voiced questioned.

'Tell me dear, are you in love, or just obsessed? This is a journey, and a journey nobody can run away from. One must pray you find something to make you lucky enough to end it all quickly.'

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Word count: 210

A/n: I'm dying as we speak heklp