FALLING OUT OF LOVE

The Last Time

Today I came to the hospital, to visit you again, but deep down I was so scared it will be my last time of seeing you. I walked to your room, as I watched your unconscious body. I sat down next to you. I felt so happy when I woke up. The smile was one face as I walked to the hospital. The doctors gave me an hour with you, cause I'm sure you added me as your wife. I gave as smile when they called me by your last name.
I walked up to you, you didn't give me that useless sully smirk of yours when I came close to you. I let my hand get tangled in your hair. I kissed your forehead gently. Letting a drop of tears slide down your cheeks. I wondered if you were feeling the same way. I wonder what people think of when their in comma. I let our book, lie on your chest as I read to you every chapter of our journey. I was so happy with all the words you wrote. Remembering our last argument we had before all this. Those words I said to you during the argument, made me feel guilty.
***Flash back***
"Go to hell Chase Adams, I hate you, I wish I never met you, all you ever did was lie to me. I can't believe you did it  how could you, your the hell on earth in my life".
"Lee, please, I didn't mean to hurt you, you'll know me well, that I won't do anything like that to you". You carraesed my cheeks, making me look into those Amber eyes of yours, it calmed me down, but I was so stubborn. "Go to hell". I told you as I shut you out. I ran up to my room in tears, watching you as you left. I kept crying and cuddling with the stuff animal, I couldn't sleep, deep down I wanted you here. I wanted your arms wrapped around my waist, I believed you, I knew you, but I'm just so scared to forgive you. I looked at the ceiling, the stars we made together, those painted stars kept me all night.
I felt a buzz in my pants. I pulled out my phone, to see you called.
"Help, I'm sorry". You sounded you were in pain, you were moaning, I put on my jacket and ran out of the house. I rushed to a group of crowd as I prayed. You knew I wasn't a big fan of prayer. My mum called me, she told me you were in the hospital.
I saw my world crashing as I ran to the hospital, a million memories rushed to me. I head off to the nurse and she calls me your last name as your wife. I walk into your room, tour mum gives me a hug. It was so warm.
"He just got cleaned up, so promise you'll be gentle with my baby". She winked at me and smirks. She leaves the room, but I could hear her giggle.
"come here, baby. Chase said stretching in pain, I could see he did that in pain. I rushed to you.
"I'm so sorry, Lee, I didn't and I'll never say those words to you". You said gently, whispering into my ear. I giggled.
"You got the whole BARNEY song wrong idiot".
"Hey, I was eight when I last watched it". He pouted as I laughed the more.
"Chase, I was like four before I stopped watching television, and believe me, I can sing it better than you".
"oh yeah, how do you know, sing it, will you". He said giving me a fake glare.
"Fine, I will, I love you... You love me, let's be a family... With a great big hug and a kiss from you to me". I gave him a kiss quickly on his lips. "Don't you say you love me to".
"Well then let's make our special family". He said smirking. I turned around as my whole face was stained red and I blushed looking away.
"So classy, Chase Adams". I said glaring at him.
"I agree, Emily Adams". He smirked widely as he washed my face as red as  tomatoes.
"Wait to see, Aiden Elise Adams, he just look as handsome at me, with as eyes as beautiful as yours, and a set lips as mine, that he will kiss hotties, but he will lack the voice, cause you have to be a horrible singer". He said with a matter of fact.
"Hey, I don't have a bad voice idiot, I sing like an angel, and how come he won't get my lips, all he get is my eyes, that's not fair at least my skin will be okay". I said pouting, I must look horrible right now, Chase chucked lightly. I couldn't help but beam with excitement.
"Believe me, Em, if he ends up having your skin, he will end up in the toilet.
"Hey, that's our baby". I gasped as I held my tummy, "don't say that he can hear you Adam, be calm, idiot".
"Says the person who chased a big dog cause, he had Drake in his mouth". He said grinning like the idiot, he is.
"Hey I told you I was sorry for beating the owner of the dog, next time she should be responsible for her action". I pouted.
"Scott, she was eight, and I you scarred him for the rest of his life".  "But I still apologize to him".
"After you took him to court, who was your lawyer?"
"HEY, the dog bit off his arm, and I'm sure it affected Drake arm for real".
"Your just a crazy, sassy asshole, who doesn't just know when to stop".
"Yet, your willing to spend eternity with the crazy asshole in distressed". I said sarcastically.
"As long as you make me food, you can leave with me for eternity". He grumbled, tapping a space beside him. I sat their slowly stroking his hair.
"what we going to do when you get out first"
"well I'm plan of having the best time with you on my bed".
"eel.. You perv". I said thinking of how much my boyfriend is.
"Hey, I meant looking at the stars painted". He said robbing his arm lightly, but he got his Smirk on. "But if you insist I can look at the stars on your buddy as we cuddled"
I knew he was just fooling around, actually Chase might not be a virgin, but his willing to wait, I'm one and I ain't ashamed of it, we had talked about it several times about it, but I knew I wanted Chase Adam's to take my virginity, but I never told him cause I was shy.
"will you, read me a book? ". chase said pouting and giving me a puppy eye. I sighed as I looked into his Amber eyes. He knew that look will bring me down to softness.
" OK fine, we're the book". He pointed to the direction as I grabbed it for him.
I kept reading the book, as I heard a small voice
"I love you, Emily Scott, no matter what".
"I love you too Chase Adams, even when you fart". I smiled as he slept so calmly. His face glowing so beautifully, I gave him a gentle kiss on his lips kissing him passionately. I kissed his forehead. As I walked toward the door, the machine began to beep loudly, I turned to see him shaking, his body vibrating, I quickly yelled.
Doctors came running towards the body shaking on the bed, deep down I knew we weren't having that night.
"Quickly, shock him". The doctor yelled at the nurse.
I saw his body go up as he received his shock.
"His going into comma",  the nurse shocked him again.
It was so quickly, I saw his eyes meet mine, those Amber eyes looked so brighter ashe mouthed to me. "Don't worry, I'm still in that place that holds our love together". I saw a split of tears roll than his cheeks. I realized I was crying when I saw his eyes shot.
"I love you, so flipping much, you idiot, your so selfish". I said running to him. I hit him lightly, expecting him to drag me on top of his body, wrapping his arms around me and pulling me to his body, but nothing happen he didn't open those crystal Amber eyes that held all the solution.
I watched as the doctors left me with him. I knew that he was never going to comma, I let myself cry as layer next to him.
I cried myself to sleep in the same position, my arms around him. I felt warm but it wasn't as warm I felt when he held my slim waist.
My last time, but I wanted to have pain.
"Chase, I'm going to get you for this in heaven, just know that". I said it quietly as I imagined me punching him as he ran to Angel Michael for protection. I smiled as the cry came out more. I didn't want to think of the future without him in it.
Flash end. ***.

I looked at you, lying there for about a month. I read the scrap book, every word you said, even the ones I said. I knew you could hear every laughter. I read DEAR CHILD. I didn't cry no, but I smiled,especially when I read your comment. I held my tummy, wishing you had done it.
I stood up, I walked up to you and have you soft kiss on your forehead.  I promised I wouldn't cry, I tried not to as I walked towards the door. I held the scrap book to my chest with a smile. Knowing that I slowly defeating the fear. You wanted me to defeat it and now I am doing it, I'm going to just okay. I turned to you with a smile, no regrets, no sadness, no turning back, I'm finally doing Chase Adams, I'm letting you go.
"I'm ready for the burial, Mrs Adams, I'll be fine". I said to your mother as I hugged her.
"No, call me Mum, I'm your mum". She hugged me tightly.
"I love you Mum". I whispered into your mom's ear
"I love you too". She pecked me and let me go. We walked to the car. There's was no turning back, no going back. They took your body to be ready for the burial.
I'm happy I met you, your endless stories, our adventure, laughter, sadness, my inflation, tensed moment, those times when you were afraid, but do you know the reason why I'm happy.
Cause Chase Adams, I was lucky to fall in love with the greatest but amazing idiot, and that I got the opportunity to be in the light. To know Jesus, I'm happy you thought me how to pray and love everyone each day.
This isn't my last time to see you, is only my last time to see you on earth.
I love you Chase Adams, I always had and always will.