Reality || Brooklyn Beckham

Ch.20 - Moving on

Chapter 20 - Moving on

-(C l a r y ' s P O V)-

Reality hits me like a ton of bricks .

Before our lips crash into each other a sudden urge rush through my veins .

I jerk away .

I just reject a kiss from Brooklyn freaking Beckham .

I froze on my spot not really sure about what I did , I jerk away from him . my eyes wonder around my room literally can't focusing on anything let alone on Brooklyn .

My mind gone blank and so does my face , I don't know what to do I can't say anything . Brooklyn stare at me in surprise .

No I can't kiss him , did he really think just because I agree to be his fake girlfriend he can just kiss me ? . Did he really think if things don't work out with Cassie he can just use me as his rebound ? I don't want to be second option . This is fake , I can't let him kiss me or else I'll totally fall for him and when I do , he's going to leave and then I'll be the one who got hurt .

I don't want that to happen , he need to make this clear , he's the one who made this whole fake relationship . we never discuss when will this end , I can't fall for him I can't . What'd I do if someday he just gonna tell me that this is all over , I can't bear that . And I'm so not gonna let him use me like that .

I get up from my bed furiously , my mind gone wild . I stand in front of him shaking my head frustrated on him , he does all those nice sweet things when he said this is all just fake . I can't do this anymore , if he wants fake relationship then we should act like one only together when we need to . Not this .

"Why'd would you do that." I said and I can feel my cheeks burning , he stare at me his expression is unreadable . He looks taken aback from my action , did he really think I would kiss him ?

"Oh really." He said calmly , why is he acting like this ? . He get up from his bed and standing in front of me facing me closely .

"Fine then , I won't kiss you ." He said in all seriousness . "but you tell me that you don't feel a thing over all this time , you tell me that you never like me in that way , you tell me that you never feel this isn't feel like fake dating anymore , you tell me on that very moment why'd you close your eyes and took so long to jerk away from me , look at me in the eyes and tell me now."

I stare at him in disbelief , I don't know what to think .

You do like him .

No I can't , I look at him in the eyes and my mouth hanging open . I want to say what he told me to say , but somehow I can't . I just stare at him blankly and he stare at me like I-told-you-so .

"We never discuss on how ... and when ... this all will end." I said slowly my voice trembling , and it feels like I'm choking on my own words . His expression changes , this time he looks hurt ? Maybe I don't know I don't even sure what I feel at this very moment .

"Oh you know what." He said he looks hurt at what I just said . "Maybe I'm wrong about that , maybe I believe that you feel exactly the same as me just to make myself feel better . You must be just a really good actress , after all of this it's still fake to you . You never been real with me."

"You want to know when this will end ? Well let me tell you we can end this right now I don't care . I'm sorry to think that you might enjoy being with me , I thought we were having fun . Now I know it's just me . it's over now I'm sorry for ever bothering your life , after all I'm over Cassie anyway." He walk past me and I know he's going to leave right now .