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Ch.33 - Better than dreams

Chapter 33 - Better than dreams

-( C l a r y ' s P O V )-

"What the hell are you doing here ?" I snap at him , I'm well aware that we're still standing outside and I'm almost freezing here since I didn't wear anything other than my pajamas .

"Umm can we continue this ... like ... inside ?" He said looking nervous as hell as if he knew that I really don't want him to get inside my house right now . But looking at the condition right now I think he's actually right , it's really cold here .

I nod at him as I enter my house , he followed me from behind for a second I thought about closing the door before he can enter my house . But ...

Maybe you like him being here .

Ugh no way .

"So ?" I said to let him know that he can explain now . I hate to admit this but I still feel nervous about his presence here , my heartbeat still going crazy . And there's a million thoughts running through my mind right now .

"Umm well I need to talk to you." He said with a nervous expression . I don't know why but he talks slower this time , it feels like he really thinks about each word that he's going to say .

And it makes me really anxious .

"Okay then , talk." I said trying to sound strong but I know that I don't sound strong at all right now . I'm probably sounds like I'm about to cry .

He didn't say anything . He just stare at me , his expression is unreadable this time . I try to look away from him but I can't . His eyes are too captivated .

"I can't do this anymore." I said finally shaking my head . I'm really tired of his shits , he always makes me confuse . His action , his words , he confuses me .

If he doesn't like me and he likes Cassie , okay that's fine can't he just say that ? That would hurts me for sure , but doing this ... It hurts me even more .

"Brooklyn just say what you want to say . You confused me , always . I don't know what you feel , for god sake I can't read your fucking mind." I said in frustrate . I'm so done with this , I really don't need to break my heart even more .

"If you're here to tell me about Cassie , just fucking say it . And then leave me alone , I ... I've had enough heart breaks." I said , I was talking so quickly . I can't believe that I actually said that .

I can feel my cheeks burning up and the tears in the corner of eyes are about to fall out . Brooklyn looks taken aback at what I just said , I can tell he's in total shock .

"Clary please listen to me." He holds my upper arms so tightly as if he try to put back all of my pieces that he broke . He looks straight into my eyes , and I'm just stood there . I can't move and all I can do is hold my tears .

"It's always been you Clary." He said slowly as he looks straight to the ground not even looking at me as if he's afraid of what he's about to say .

"I'm so over Cassie , it's always been you Clary . I was such a wimp at first , I didn't even manage to ask you some simple question to ask you out." He chuckles bitterly at his last words as I try to catch my breath again . Am I dreaming ?

"I was at the park with her because I wanted to tell her that I don't feel anything about her anymore . I'm in love with you , and I will always choose you over anyone else . I swear ."

I don't know when it happened but right now we lock our gaze and it feels like everything around me doesn't matter anymore . It's just me and him .