The Kings Affection (King/Queen - Fanfic)

Chapter 9: The Longing Continues...

POV: Queen Ha Kyung

Queens Chamber:

"As a queen to the crown and someone who loves her king, i'm happy she's close to finding her cousin and the tutor, they served well to the crown but as a woman who's madly in love with her 'husband', should I call her my husband? well, she's to me, specially after last night, she did not just claim my heart but my body as well.. I'm confused and my head hurts" holds head with both hands, "this is so frustrating, i'm... I-i'm jealous.. ...i'm allowed to be jealous after all this time, right.." my expression changed "... and scared"

"what would happen to me when the tutor gets back in good health? I've heard from the court lady and eunuch Hong how her cousin was also in love with her and kept her secret from childhood" I sat in disbelief of this dire situation, "how can i compete with a loyal cousin who dedicated his life to safeguard her secret even without her knowing, then to someone she fell in love from the moment they met as a child, who also fought hard for her cause along her side. He put his life on the line and they always saved each other"

Walking side to side in disbelief of my own thoughts here "to know both are from her childhood, known her for decades intimately..." I did recall some of my favourite moments from last night "well, definitely not as intimate as we are now" a smile escapes from my lips " if she was a man then I would've shared her with concubines, maybe it is like that.." my confusion grew "but this is not just about physical, she's in love with him, will I be strong enough to share her heart with someone? ... .. what if she doesn't want to be shared in the first place, huh.. my head hurts... i don't know how i feel about it but even if she won't need me by her side after the tutor arrives, i'll clear my way for her lover, if that's what she prefers, I won't fight, whatever makes her happy and safe will always be my choice, I'll play my part till the end if she wants me to" I feels so confident and clear headed after my self talk.

Night At Queens Chamber:

The announcement of the king, "why wouldn't she be here, court lady insisted her to spend the nights here, it's convenient  for their secret meetings as well" King hwi walks in with so much pride and happiness in her face but I can't keep my hopes up, this may not be for me but her smile is very attractive on her handsome face, can't show my feelings on my face, huh my inner voice is screaming. "my queen, you'll be pleased to hear some good news about the cousin.." before she could finish, "see told you, that smile is not for me" my inner voice spoke out

"Well, this smile is for you my queen, finally looking at your face after not seeing you the whole day" why is she hugging me, is this a friendly hug or a romantic one, worse what if it's a pity hug, what happened last night, is that a pity as well? coz I was crying and asking for her attention, no, I told her before, I will not beg for her affection, or of her to accept my love... Did i beg for her affection last night.. "my queen are you okay?" king hwi turned my head towards her, those eyes are always full of love and care for me "don't ask me that," it's this question led to my whole existence changed last night. "why, did i do something to upset you?" here we go, the concerned voice again.

"no, please tell me, what's the good news you want to share my king" how can I avoid her gaze and the hands conquering my body and my soul. "I got another letter from my personal guard, they found the last place they kept my cousin hostage, i sent more troops and arsenals to provide every support they need" that's a relief, now what about the tutor then.. should i ask her about him, or will she bring up on her own to me "that is a good news" I have to move away from her hold without making a scene, why is she holding me tight "stop trying to move away from me my queen" her gentle voice breezed into my ears as she leaned more towards me from behind, hope I could freeze this moment forever..

"my queen.." her hesitant voice is intoxicating "I know your love for me is true, yesterday Is not an accident, yes i wanted to comfort you but.. ... I did what felt right at that moment.. ... for me as well" does she read my mind, why is she saying all this? or did i spoke out like before "you don't have to keep a distant from me my queen" how can i say being near her is more alluring like i'm under her. "what's the news you want to share" it's better to distract this conversation "well, the news can wait, only arrangements have done and nothing major have happened at the moment... but for now, i want us to take the bed,  if you care to join me"

I'm screaming inside, how can she be this direct. well, she has always been direct but this side of her is... i'm nervous. I'm unable to think about anything else right now except her words. seeing her walk to bed as she lets down her hair is a sight i would never be bored of, now laying next to her in a same bed as her arms around me is a dream I thought i'll never be blessed with. why am i this nervous today, nervous than yesterday! but a gentle lips kissed my forehead "my queen, I don't mind comforting you tonight as well" those words sent jitters to all my nerves. She will never need my permission and having her near me is making me long for her even more..

Writers note:

The story nears its climax with few chapters left, so hold on to your horns and keep looking for the conclusion soon...follow me and interact with comments to have a discussion as well. I'm going where the story takes me and pouring everything from my head. hopefully this story makes a better followup to the existing story for all the GL lovers of this couple. 

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