Lost in a dream // Shailene Woodley and Theo James (Sheo Fanfic)

Chapter Twenty

I was up most of the night with Emma as we decided to go for a drink at the pub I work at. Although secretly, she just wanted to spend some more time with Andrew. So I got to bed pretty late and now I am roaming the hallways of the hub with Ruby trying to 1: Avoid Theo as I have nothing to say to him right now and 2: Kill time and hopefully get a spark of inspiration as to where we should go. Me and Ruby weren't really saying much to each other so it came as a surprise when she broke the silence saying,

"I'm not really scared of death anymore." She didn't even look up at me as she said it, her gaze stuck heavily to the ground as we walked.

"Whats brought that on?" I laugh lightly.

"It's just something I think about. Death. Its complexity. How you never really expect it to happen to you, then it does."

"That's depressing as hell." I sigh.

"It just gets me that you spend your whole life living, learning, building your empire and for what? It gets whipped away by death." Ruby looks up at me this time with wide eyes thick with a layer of water which threatened to spill if she dared blink. "Whats the point of living if we are living for death?"

"Ruby.." I start not sure where I was going with this. "What's going on, you can talk to me." I assure her.

She shakes her head as we stop walking down the blindingly white corridor. I watch as she lets her self fall to the ground, slipping against the wall and let her head fall into her hands. I feel helpless. I have no idea what was up, she seemed fine earlier. Or am I just so wrapped up in my own head that I've been too selfish to notice Ruby breaking in front of my eyes?

I drop to my knees and hover above her as she wipes a few stray tears from her eyes and bites down on her lip, trying to keep her composure.

"Talk to me Rubes." I reach out to touch her arm as I feel her take a deep breathe.

"My mums ill Shai. Shes fucking dying." My heart sinks as I watch her let go of the sorrow she was holding in. She kept it together too long and I could only sit back and witness her threshold burst. What am I meant to say to her? What, its going to be okay? It'll get better, She'll get better? I don't want to waste my time sprouting bullshit to her just as much as she doesn't want to hear it.

"Get up." I order.

"What?" She gasps through her tears.

"Lets go, up."

I pull Ruby up and drag her down the corridor towards the destination in which we will be going tonight. I reach the door and with a push of the cool wood we enter the beached Hawaiian resort.

"Why Hawaii?" She sniffs. I don't reply. Instead I continue to lead Ruby to the beach where me and Theo went to when we visited here last.

The golden sands stand untouched and shimmering as the light from the cool blue sea bounces across the horizon as if it is beckoning us. I momentarily get mesmerized by the tranquility of the location, the empty beach looks as inviting as fresh winter snow. As we reach the shore I come to halt and turn to face Ruby.

"I want you to pick up a stone, and I want to you to shout into the ocean what you fucking hate and feel about this stupid sucky situation and throw your stone, let that hatred sink with the rock." I say handing Ruby her first stone.

She hesitates for a while but eventually grabs the stone from my palm and twists it in her own. I watch as she turns and caresses the small round rock and juggles it from palm to palm.

"Alright." She finally says, letting out a deep sigh as she shifts her position slightly. I watch intently as her eyebrows furrow in concentration. I silently watch as I can see her mind tick and clog, trying to formulate the words that she had been burying for so long.