Night Owl

Night Owl Ch. 31

"Joon." JK said looking over at our boss, "can you give us a few minutes?" He asked, his expression changing to worry.

I could tell he knew exactly what he meant with his question. As Namjoon closed the door, JK turned to face me. Cupping my face, staring me right in the eyes his tears began to pool.

My brow pinched in, worry filling my face as I stared at him. I hate that I knew in that moment he's been keeping something from me.

He promised.

He promised not to keep anything from me anymore. Why did he keep this from me?

This life altering decision, that could shatter our relationship.

"Lily." He began rubbing his thumb over my cheek, "will you let me explain?"

I didn't want to listen to him. I didn't care about what he had to say right now. All I wanted was for this moment to end, and for him to say that it was all a terrible joke.

He couldn't possibly be serious, could he? He saw what my memory loss did to Jin and me.

Jin loss everything and I didn't recover for 4 years. In the grand scheme of things, in vampire years 4 years isn't a long time, but that's far from the point.

As he took in a deep sigh, his shoulders fell. Running his fingers through his hair, he stared at me, hoping that I'd not want to talk.

He was sadly mistaken.

"Jungkook, answer me." I demanded, sitting back crossing my arms. He knew he was in trouble by my tone. His nervous smirk flittered across his lips as he avoided my now menacing gaze.

Exasperated, my head fell back before resting on my shoulder.

Standing up, he put some distance between us. He knew when I was mad, I had trouble checking my temper and strength.

Giving me space was always the smartest play.

"Lily, hear me out." He said spinning to face me, his hands shoved in the pocket of the hoodie he was wearing.

"You lied to me JK." The disappointment in my voice made him bite his lip. I hated seeing his hurt from disappointing me, but this was unavoidable.

The worry was starting to build and I just wanted to get to the bottom of what was really going on. "Come sit down baby." I said patting the seat next to me. I truly did want to talk, and my normal attitude wasn't going to help any part of this situation.

"Okay, tell me what's going on? Why am I just learning about you trying to turn? You know I don't want that." Thinking of only myself, I couldn't help but to be selfish. To think about what I was losing if he became what I am, I couldn't fathom it.

"That's the most self centered thing you've ever said to me, Lily." He said his eyes slightly cold. He's never used that tone. A tone that breathed disappointment, but this time, in me.

How could he be disappointed in me? I'm the one that would be losing the most in this. I would have to suffer if something went wrong. I'd be left alone for goodness knows how long, while being forced to hope he remembers me.

Not to mention the worst part of it all. What if...what if what happened to Jin, happens to me? What if he can't remember me and falls in love with someone else? I'd be left all alone.

Hypocritically, I thought about Jin and what I put him through. While it wasn't my fault and it wouldn't be JK's either, the entire situation made me sick.

"Lily." He said bringing me out of my thoughts.

Squeezing my hand, his head tilted meeting my gaze. "I've already thought about everything your thinking right now." Shifting in his seat, he threaded his legs between mine.