Night Owl

Night Owl Ch. 32

It's hard to believe that it's been a week since JK and I had our talk. I still can't bring myself to believe that this is happening. I hate it. I don't want him to be like me. I want him to live a full life and die like a normal person.

But who am I. I'm so fucking selfish, I could never say that to his face, at least not so bluntly. He's made his choice and now I have to just live with it. We only have a week left of him in his human state and I wanted to make the most of it.

I asked Namjoon if we could have the week off. He knows what we're dealing with, and he granted me the time without hesitation. I loved working for him, he truly was the best boss.

Sitting up in my bed, I peeked over looking at the curves on his tanned back. I adored the little moles that peppered his skin. They were kissable. Wrapping my arm around his waist I nestled into the warmth of his skin as I listened to the sound of his heartbeat.

It was my favorite thing to do. As I closed my eyes, the steady rhythm beat against my cheek, and I couldn't help but to smile. My stomach churned thinking that my time with this beautiful sound was nearly over.

The comfort that I cherish in hearing him alive, was about to be gone.

Why was I so selfish? Why couldn't I just accept that this is what he wants to do? I was being so unreasonable.

Was it because if I had a choice, I'd never choose this life? I mean it's the truth. I would never make this choice for myself. I only made it because I had no other options. Options that were ironically taken away by the love of my life's greedy manipulative father.

I know once it's done, that it means that we'll be together, but I have a bad feeling about the entire thing. I don't trust that they have fixed the serum.

I'm terrified that I'm going to lose him. That he's just going to vanish and never remember me. I can't go through that. Not after we've come so far and have done some much to be together.

"Lily." His voice rumbled against my cheek, "I can feel you worrying. Stop it baby."

A tiny chuckle escaped as I gently bit back. He knew me. Was that about to go away? The small moments like this when we're so in tune that I don't even have to speak, and he just knows what I'm thinking.

"I'm sorry." I said, rolling to my back. As I studied the ceiling, I suddenly was faced with his bright smile hovering over me. Leaning down he kissed the tip of my nose before caressing my cheek.

"I know you're worried, Lily. But I promise, everything is going to be okay." His smile met his eyes as he gazed lovingly at me. Cupping his cheeks, I brought him in for a gentle kiss as he settled his weight on me, pressing me into the mattress.

Would this feeling change? His body won't be the same, it'll be more like mine. Will he feel warmer to me? Or stronger? I did have curiosities but not any that really made me want to see him like that.

"Tell you what," he said resting his face in the crook of my neck. "Why don't we go away this week. We can go anywhere you want. Here or internationally. You pick a place, and we'll go there for the next week."

Leaning back to look him in the eyes, "are you serious right now? I can choose anywhere?"

Smiling at me he nodded his head.

Resting my head against the pillow, I thought about where I really wanted to go with him. Ther were so many places that I wanted to visit.

"And I can choose anywhere I want right? No holds bar?"

I felt the rumble of his laugh against my belly, as he was realizing the weight of his decision. It could get expensive knowing my taste in vacations. "Hmm," I murmured as I bit my lip, while caressing his back gently with my nails. I could tell he was getting turned on by the subtle touches, as his dick began to harden against my belly.