What I Have Left To Give

7: The Hell?

Dragonna's POV

Three days in this stupid ass bed, three, fucking, days. Can't he just kill me now? I was done with this room, and him. For three days he sat there and spoon fed me, breakfast, lunch, snack, and dinner. If I needed to use the bathroom he had a maid hold a bucket under me. I had a maid holding my ass off the bed so I could piss.. Am I the only one who sees the problem here??? Of course I seemed to be the only one. Sure enough he was true to his word,he never left the room. He only looked away when they came in so I could shit. Balchazar, I was going to kill that son of a bitch.

"So Acki, anything to say or are we sitting in silence again?" He'd tried to get me to talk, I was determined not to, but I was so bored.

"Please stop calling me that." It really got annoying.

"It's your name isn't it?"

"No it isn't my name was Ahai and its not anymore."

"Na I like that nickname." He was such an ass.

"Fine then, Bal." I know it's a lame attempt leave me alone.

"Bal? Of all the things you could come up with?"

"Yes because you have a very long ass name your-assness." He chuckled beside me, asshole, he makes it so hard to insult him.

He only shrugged, "at least you're talking."He held out a spoonful of something out to me, three days eating out of his hands. He will die soon.

The rest of the day went about the same, he gave me food, water and annoyed me until I was going to kill myself with these damn chains. He was attempting to feed me lunch when I lost it the next time, he sat down on the bed screwing around with my feet. Yes, I'm an assassin who's ticklish, it's not that big of as deal!He tickled my feet repeatedly while I was kicking at him, and he only sat and laughed, curse these chains. 

"Will you stop that already?!" He laughed more as I landed a kick into his jaw interrupting him. 

"It's cute you think that hurts little Acki." 

"Fuck you! Get away!"

"Why?" My heartbeat quickened as he crawled over me leaving his face inches from mine. My body tensed, but it was different than the other times that's happened. Usually I tense in preparation, not fear, but getting ready to zone out of this situation. Here, I didn't know what it was, it wasn't fear, it wasn't like before at all, a knot was in my stomach and goosebumps where all over my body. I did't like it. 

"Get off of me." 

"Why?" His face got closer to mine, oh my gods was he going to kiss me? 

"Because I don't want you there." My heartbeat thundered in my ears, I needed to get control, AHAI PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER! Nothing, no matter how hard I tried my heart beat could probably be heard by Balchazar by now.

"Hmm, alright, but that doesn't mean I'm going to move." I could feel his breath on my lips and he slightly tilted his head to the side. No, don't do it, oh gods don't do it. "Relax Acki. I'm not going to hurt you understand?" My head shook without my permission, I couldn't get control, I needed control, and I couldn't get it while he was there. 

All of a sudden his eyes softened a little more and he leaned in the rest of the way and touched his lips to mine. My first reaction was to pull away, but I didn't, I couldn't command my body to do it. My Mind screamed at me to move but I didn't I was frozen. He pulled back and smirked as he got up. It felt like a lifetime before he spoke. 

"Nobody here will hurt you, especially not me." Then he turned around and for the first time in three days he walked out of the room.

WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT??!!

Balchazar's POV

WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT??? 

She laid there for days never saying a word to me except to insult me and I kissed her... Why did I kiss her? She's so irritating, and stubborn, and high strung... and strong and tall and beautiful-

BALCHAZAR! WHAT ARE YOU THINKING?!

Will you just shut up?

You can't possibly like her! 

What says I can't?

I don't know, try the fact that she is dangerous?!

NO she's not, she just needs someone to show her she can relax and trust...

You are an idiot.

I really was losing it wasn't I? That's beside the point, the point is she didn't do anything when I did. I get that maybe she just froze up, but she doesn't freeze up, in the weeks she's been here she has never done that. When has she ever not reacted to me violently? It just didn't add up, and I didn't want to think that there was a chance that she-STOP IT! Okay there is a perfectly reasonable explanation for this, that I can't think of, but it's there.

I walked out of there after I kissed her, I wonder what she was thinking or doing...Maybe I'd know  if i'd have stayed. I walked out, I just walked out, after kissing her, UGH I am an Idiot! I paced outside her door, I couldn't take it, she was probably going off about it trying to pick the lock with that look on her face. The one where her eyebrows lifted, and her, beautiful, green eyes got more intense and distant, her ruby lips pressed into a thin line as she worked... Okay, maybe I do like her a little bit, but she'd never consider it... Would she? She could have killed me multiple times and she never has.  

I have to have her, she's to interesting to let go. She would stand up to me without blinking an eye, she didn't back down from a fight, and she tasted amazing. I know it was a long shot, and gods know how broken she is behind that shell, but I didn't care. I wanted her, not physically, but emotionally and as my partner, she was valuable. On the inside I could tell she had so much more to offer.

I couldn't take it anymore, thinking about her with her just behind the door, so I walked back in seeing her slip a wire back into her mouth. "Nice, I didn't think to look there." I said walking over and sitting beside her on the bed.

"It's one of a few places you forgot to look, but that's beside the point. What the hell was that?!" I smirked, she looked more confused than upset about it. The look was cute on her. 

"What was what hun?" She rolled her eyes, I wanted to yank her off those chains and kiss her for real, but I had to do this right or she would never be mine.

"The kiss or whatever the hell you want to call it, who the fuck gave you that right?!" 

"You are the one who said do whatever I wanted to you, I wanted to kiss you," she shook her head and muttered something under her breath. "I'm sorry what was that?"

"I said so you are a perv, that's perfect that makes my job easier." A perv? I'm not a perv, I've met kings who where, King Aurther included, and I was nothing like them. 

"Sweetheart If i was a perv, You wouldn't have the luxury of clothes, or food without earning it." I knew what they did to their girls, it disgusted me. 

"Whatever I don't feel like arguing with you today, to much of a hassle to reason with the likes of you." Why do I always have to go for the stubborn ones? 

"Fine, I'm tired anyways." I laid down beside her in the bed, "Night."

"Oh, Hell, no. Get out." I chuckled, this might be interesting.

"Na, I'm tired, and this bed is closer." She only stared at me.

"My bed get out."

"My castle." She huffed turning away from me. 

"Whatever, just stay on that side of the bed."

"Thanks Akai." she kicked me and I laughed closing my eyes. Fun.