I woke up, with it only being five years later, after that horrible time in my life. The time where I murdered my family. I am never able to sleep at night.
It was true... That once you killed a man that would be the last face you see before you go to sleep... Or die. I felt so disgusting after that night... I was dripping my mother's blood from head down.
They call me the monster... For murdering my family in there sleep. I call them monsters... For raping a five year old little girl. I don't really care what some one thinks about me... I realized after trying to commit suicide a year straight in this shit hole that I was stuck in this life forever.
I wasn't safe any more my dreams continued. Year after year I become so heartless. I was rotten from inside all the way out. But I only had a soft heart for my beby girl, Harmony..
She is the reason why I'm still alive. If she was not here I don't think I'd be able to live.
"Good morning Monster." The guards laughed unlocking my cell. I stood and they took me down to lunch.
"She is fucking sick." They whispered to each other as I walked a head.
I got to lunch and grabbed the tray then began to eat. In here I stayed to myself. I would be getting out soon any ways. Just three more years until I was free. I been behaving hopefully that let me out early.
I really wanted to see my baby and how big she grew. She would be nine now. I couldn't wait.
One unexpected evening, the guards called me down. I followed quietly. They walked me to the visit room. Tear's filled my eyes as I looked back at the guards.
"Go on..." She said. I moved toward the booth and broke down. Behind the glass was Harmony. I quickly sat down and they took the cuffs off me. She pointed to the phone.
I picked it up and said,
"Hello.?" Harmony squealed and said,
"Mama!" I felt my heart shake.
"I can't wait till you come home... I missed you so much.!" She says softly. I smiled and rubbed my arm.
"I missed you more baby girl how you been." Harmony sighed.
"Mama... I been... Going through... A lot since you left. I can't sleep... I just want you home." She said her eyes growing wet with salty tears.
I began to cry too and said,
"Three more years baby girl... I'll be coming home. I love you so much baby girl oh mi gosh when I get out... I just want to cradle you." She laughed.
"You got so big baby girl... Aren't you Nine.?" She nod her head.
"I'll be ten in december." I smiled and we talked until it was time to go.
Harmony waved goodbye and left. I walled back to my room and actually fell straight to sleep.
With special help from AmberToRealHolloway. Thank you honey .
