Daddy Didn't Love Me // Lawlorff

Thirty

I woke up with Kian's hair in my mouth. I spat it out immediately upon this realization and he awoke as well, probably wondering why the hair on top of his head became so suddenly dampened. 

"Hi," he smiled up at me. It was strange for me to see his eyes looking up at mine because it was always the other way around. With our monumental height difference, I had to look to the heavens to see my angel every day. Kian nearly never was on the other side of things, even in bed. He never slept on my chest or pulled in under my arm. It was always me who would be propped up next to his beating heart, falling asleep slowly to the coasting tranquility of his breathing pattern. 

"Hey babe," I smiled back. He let out a groan, reminding me of something I had heard just a night prior. 

"What time is it?" he pondered, flailing his arms around in search of our alarm clock to grab hold of. I laughed at his pathetic sleep deprived struggle and tossed it to him. He picked it up. It read 10:15am. 

He smiled at me like he was leaving me out of the most precious of secrets. I cocked an eyebrow directly at him and he took quick notice. "Okay, fine. I'll tell you." 

I clapped my hands together and shifted up toward the bed frame so I could sit upright for him to tell me. 

"I booked us an appointment viewing a venue for the wedding," he admitted. He blushed and bit his bottom lip so hard I swore it was going to be severed off. 

My eyes widened and I beamed at him, throwing my arms around his ribs and pulling my amazing fiancee onto my lap. 

"You're the best," I remarked, Kian now visibly showing off a gleam in his eye. I could tell of his excitement about the wedding instantly, and before I knew it, my mind was wandering toward the taste of his lips from the night before. He saw that I wasn't thinking about what he was, and looking hurt, he moved farther from me cautiously. 

I shifted back toward him immediately. I didn't want to hurt his feelings. He sure did care more about the wedding than I did, but that wasn't about to stop me from being all for it just so he could have peace at mind. 

I cupped his cheeks in my hands and kissed him. "Kian. You know that I'm more than ecstatic about this too. I wasn't thinking about it then, but that doesn't mean it doesn't matter to me." 

He looked puzzled. "Then what were you thinking about?" 

I smirked. "These," I said as I pulled his lips to mine again, and as we pulled away I bit his bottom lip slightly. He loves it when I do that, I know that for certain. Anything to make him feel as hopelessly in love as I did last night will do the trick. 

I look at his expression and smile at the sight of his eyes glued shut in shock and satisfaction. 

He opens his mouth to talk and then closes it right away. Good. He's at a loss for words.

Kian looked me in the eye and sighed. "As much as I want to continue this.....our appointment is at eleven." 

I shot up. "Shit, baby. We gotta get going!"

He nodded and grabbed his pants from the ground. He pulled them up his legs and I threw up the blankets looking for mine. 

"Ki?" 

He looked up and laughed. He grabbed mine from under the bed and threw them at me. I quickly pulled them on and saw Kian rummaging through the closet for a shirt. 

He was rejecting tops left and right, throwing each shirt down onto the floor, hangers scattering everywhere. I nearly got hit in the eye with one while trying to come in with him. 

"Ahh, fuck!" he screamed. 

I placed a hand on his hip comfortingly. "What?" I asked. 

He looked at me and rolled his eyes. "There's nothing to wear." 

I chuckled and pulled the only remaining shirt from the rack. It was a button down blue top that I knew for a fact looked amazing on Kian. 

He smiled weakly. "I don't know Sammy..." 

I scoffed. "You look hot as fuck in that, Ki. Trust me." 

He giggled to himself and grabbed a shirt from the floor. The shirt I was wearing when I met him. 

I smiled at him. 

He threw his shirt over his head and pulled it down his torso and I did the same. 

We were off, and we were planning our marriage left and right. 

And I loved it.