tfw ur black and white

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haha being mix sucks. but sometimes it's really cool! and sometimes it sucks.

Drake knows! in his song you & the 6 he says "I used to get teased for being black, and now I'm here and I'm not black enough."

like shit I heard that line and passed out on the floor bc he hit that fucking dead on.

every mix kid is gonna have a different experience being mix so let me give you my background:

I grew up in a white suburb and went to school with a lot of white kids, like five black kids and the rest of the black kids were Muslim and didn't like me.

the black kids that were there acted pretty white except for two.

my middle school experience stayed pretty white/suburban up until eighth grade. then we got other kids transferring into the middle school class and like actual fights would happen and people really started doing drugs and it was less Aeropostale and more... not fucking Aeropostale.

there was also this ongoing joke that if you went to my middle school for the whole three years that you acted white (which was pretty true).

so high school same and now there are kids from everywhere and I'm truly getting exposed to all walks of life. there are poor kids, middle class kids, and upper middle class kids (the real rich kids go to private school).

in my experience at least, I always struggle a lot with racial stuff. it's just the way that society works. especially since you always see stuff online like "white people are weird" or "white vs black" so everything around you is split up between white or black but what do you do when your white and black?

there've been times when I wished that I was paler and that my hair was straight and that I was seen as a white person

and there've been times when I've wished that I was darker and acted more like my brother so people would see me as black.

I want to say that I'm over all that but I really am not it still effects me, especially at school.

I have my black friends and my white friends. my black friends weren't just black girls, but they were girls who acted 'hood'. and my white friends weren't really all white but they acted 'white'.

I got made fun of by my black friends for liking white things (my music taste, the way I dressed, shit like that). and while my white friends never made fun of me, I could tell sometimes they were off put by how different I acted compared to them.

I know reading this you're probably offended by my blatant use of racial stereotypes but I'm literally surrounded by them.

I've kind of started to realize that mixed kids tend to have their own culture altogether. this culture can vary greatly on how they were raised but there are still things I do that I notice other mix kids do.

in the end, you can't really define mix kids by just black or white because they aren't black or white.

they're black and white and they'll act like both. so for the love of god stop calling them out on how white they are because they like Beatles or how black they are because they speak with slang words. it just supports racial stereotypes and hurts feelings.

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