You Deserve Better (A Diggy & Yn FanFic)

Chapter 24

Shay's POV

*Couple Hours Later*

I woke up from my nap on the couch. After thinking about for a few minutes, I went over to speak to Yn & Torion's mom. I searched the house until I saw her lying in bed in her room.

"Hey" I said quietly while standing at her doorframe.

She looked over at me and smiled. I never noticed how stunning her smile was until now. "Hey" she said before motioning for me to sit on her bed.

"I'm sorry for the way I acted earlier" I said after taking a seat. "You were right. I did give up my faith. I-"

"Shay" she stopped me. "Child, there's no need to apologize. I understand." She took a deep breath. "You know, I'd lost my faith too at one point, very recently."

"Really?" I asked as I crossed my legs on the bed.

She sat up slowly and nodded. "Yeah, it was terrible. I remember finding out my husband, ex husband, was cheating on me. I remember one morning, Yn and Torion were trying to talk to me and I just walked around like a zombie. Hair all over the place, eyes puffy and red from crying, barely talkin' to my kids. I even tried to kill myself."

As I listened to her words, it reminded me a lot of how my mom was when my dad first died. Then it occurred to (even though I already realized it years ago): mom had lost her faith, too.

"You were suicidal at one point?" My eyes widened because she seems so strong, it's weird thinking about her just giving up like that.

She nodded again. "I my family with all my heart. I do everything to keep them happy. I felt like I wasn't enough when he cheated."

"So how'd you get your faith back?" I asked out of curiosity.

"Well, once I left the hospital I saw how hurt Yn and Torion were. They were deeply affected by what I was trying to do, and seeing them hurt did nothing but hurt me even more. I knew I needed to get my life back together so I prayed. Long and hard. Plus, they needed me. Not long after they found out he cheated, he left the family completely and now he's got a new one."

I shook my head. "He's given up something beautiful" I said, not knowing I said it aloud.

She smiled. "Yeah, the kids are so great. Before we all came here, life wasn't so easy on us a few years ago. Torion was caught up in the wrong crowd and my parents were both sick with cancer. After my parents died and Torion had almost gotten beat to death when he was jumped in front of Yn, I though I was gonna just give up. But I love my family too much, I always will. And guess what? After a lot prayer, things started to look up. For all of us: we moved here, Torion became more focused on his education, Yn wasn't crying all the time, and I thought my husband and I would stay together forever." She took a long sigh before shrugged. "But God does everything for a reason. It was meant to be like this, I suppose."

"You're really wise" I said. "And brave. And strong. The list just goes on."

"I try" she said with a smile before yawning.

I stood up. "I'm gonna let you get some rest. Good night" I said before walking toward the door. It wasn't even late at all but I know she was probably still jet lagged.

"Good night" she said. I stopped in my tracks and turned back toward her. "Is something wrong?"

I smiled at her. "Thank you" I said.

"For what?"

"Everything" I said before smiling and walking out of the door.

On my way out, I bumped into Torion. "Hey" he said.