You Deserve Better (A Diggy & Yn FanFic)

Chapter 34

A/N: If you don't remember what happened, read the chapter summary at the end of the chapter before this one. Plus, I think I'm getting better with this update thing. 😏 Oh yeah! And I totally forgot to give credits to @3596310A in the last chapter because she's the one who came up with the creation of Aylah and the storyline between her and Diggy's family. Thanks girl, you're amazing. ❤️

*5 Days Later*

Yn's POV

Today is the day. I woke up and fought the urge to stay in bed and cry all day like I've been doing for the last week. It's not only been a week since my mom died, but it's also the day of the funeral.

I feel so empty inside. Never in a million years did I ever think about my mom leaving Torion and I, especially at such a young age.

We're just lucky that we haven't been put into the system, thanks to Aunt Jamie, of course. She's really been there for us and she's literally been running herself crazy about her funeral arrangements. She's even started moving in already. She tries to keep this strong exterior in front of us but sometimes I hear her sobbing as she sleeps in my moms room at night.

I grabbed my all black outfit and walked to the bathroom. I sat in the shower longer than I wanted to, the shower water that ran on my face began to mix with my tears. I washed up and just sat there until the water was just too cold to stay in before getting out, drying off, doing the rest of my hygiene routine, and putting my clothes on.

I straightened my hair and went back into my room to put my heels on. I sighed as I grabbed the necklace my mom bought me a while ago and put it around my neck. I put a pack of gum, my phone, and my phone charger into my purse and walked downstairs, seeing that everyone was already dressed.

I looked over at Torion, who was just staring off into space with his hand rubbing over the watch my mom gave him a while back. Shay was sitting next to him, laying her head on his shoulder and Reginae was fixing her bun.

Aunt Jamie walked out of the kitchen and saw me standing there. "Yn, you're ready to go Babygirl?"

I nodded my head and saw her sigh. I guess she was expecting me to actually say something? I haven't said a word since mom died, to anyone. Aunt Jamie asked a therapist what to do about that and he told her it was a coping mechanism, a way for me to deal with the death of my mother, and to just give me time to fully accept her death, then maybe I'll say something when I think I'm ready.

I wanted to speak, I really do. I hate seeing their disappointed reactions when they speak to me but get no reply in return. I just.... I just don't know what to say. I'm not even sure I know how to talk anymore. I've even tried talking to myself in the mirror multiple times until I'd just get frustrated and cry even more when nothing would come out.

"Come on, guys" Aunt Jamie said as she grabbed her black purse and headed out the door.

Shay adjusted her sleek ponytail before pulling me into a hug. "I don't expect you to say anything, but I want you to know that I love you and you're not going through this alone" she told me before grabbing Torion's hand and walking toward the car.

Reginae sat next to me in the backseat and grabbed my hand. "It's gonna be okay" she whispered.

How? When will this ever be okay?

We got to the church, which was packed. Before I know it, I was breaking down, just seeing her lifeless body in the casket broke something in me. I haven't seen her since she flatlined and turned to hug Torion after I heard him sobbing next to me. Aunt Jamie had to help us both to our seats. I took a seat in the front row of the church, which was reserved for her family. Torion sat on the right side of me, Shay sat next to him, Reginae sat next to her, and Aunt Jamie sat next to her.