You Deserve Better (A Diggy & Yn FanFic)

Chapter 35

Yn's POV

*2 Weeks Later*

It's been three weeks since my mom has died, and two weeks have passed since her funeral. I don't know how I feel at all. I can't even think straight.

I stood in the mirror for what feels like the millionth time. What the fuck is wrong with me? Why can't I talk?!

Just say something. Anything.

Everybody has been waiting for me to talk. They'd come into my room after I shower and try to hold a conversation with me. But I can never respond back. I don't even remember how my own voice sounds.

As I looked at my reflection, I tried to form a sentence, a word, anything. It shouldn't be this hard! Just talk!

Talk, Yn, talk!

I sighed in frustration after a few minutes before I felt tears running down my face. I'm so lost and helpless. I turned around and saw Torion open the door.

"Hey sis" he said, giving me a weak smile.

I just looked at him, feeling jealous. We both lost the same person that we both loved more than anything, so how come he can talk but I can't? It's not fair but I can't be upset with him at all. We both stay home all the time, Shay and Reginae just bring our work home for us.

Speakin of Shay and Reginae, they haven't been over as much. Of course, they still come over a lot but Reginaes dad got sick again, so she's been taking care of him more often and Shay helps. They still have time to come over to try to get me to talk and fill me in on gossip. At least they subnet given up on me like I've given up on myself.

"Aunt Jamie's at work" he said, trying to get me to say something. When he didn't get a reply, he took a deep breath as he sat on my bed. "Yn, please, you're literally all I got" he pleaded, tears running down his face. "Please, speak. I know it's hard for you, I know Chad is a filthy nigga that constantly cheated on you and mom is gone and dad is a deadbeat and we can't talk to our grandparents about our problems anymore like how we used to and everything is happening so fast and so suddenly, but I can't do this! I need you to talk to me! Don't you think I miss her too?"

I'm trying but I can't!

"People at school are calling you dramatic" he said, angrily. "Reginae and Shay here them all the time, they even got in trouble more than once for fighting because they're defending you, defending us. Those dumbass kids think you're just doing this for attention, but I know you" he said as he grabbed my hand and sat on the floor in front of me. "I know the type of person you are. You wouldn't do that! I know you're hurtin', sis, and that's okay" he said, tears running down his face. "I need you! You're all I have left."

He lowered is head and I hugged him as he sobbed on my shoulder. I wish I could say something to make him feel better. The worst thing about losing such an amazing person like my mom is that I'm not the only person effected. Losing her hurts everyone who knows her, including my big brother.

I wrapped my arms around him tighter and I didn't wanna let him go. I hate myself for not being able to say something to stop the hurting for both of us. Even if I could say something that could help, I wouldn't even believe it, even if it was coming from my own mouth.

He sighed as he stood up and pulled back from my embrace. He wiped his face and walked toward the door. "If you need anything....... Just, just left me know okay?"

I nodded at him, even though I knew I couldn't talk even if I wanted to. He walked out of the door wiping his face. I laid on my bed and just cried, what else can I do?