Damn Ms Jimenez Is Finee (GXG)

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Jasmine:

After I hung up the call with my mom the anger in me was piling up. I just threw my phone at the wall without even thinking. Feeling so hurt and I didn't even realize tears were forming till they came out.

"Fuck" I whisper out loud not meaning to say out loud but in my head.

I didn't know that Jimenez heard me till she knocked.

"Sweetheart you okay?" She asked with a soft innocent curiosity.

Before I could even force my voice to sound fine. My mouth got the best of me "YeAH" I say sounding shaky but as well a bit crackled.

"I know you're not sweetheart, May I just come in?" She said with a mixture of pleading softly.

"Fine" I say briefly trying to sound normal but more likely sounded like a little mumble or some type of whisper but I believed she heard because she was very quiet. I even heard the door opened a bit hesitantly hearing the door squeal.

"Oh hey, Sweetheart, Whats wrong?" she says softly and sweet hurrying and stoop down to my level clearly showing care and concern over me.

"I-I got a call from my mom a-and I'm just mad on what had happened to me today" I say tears starting to form all over again begging to come out but I try to stop it.

Which she still stood on the ground with me but as well her hand on my shoulder caressing it softly.

Her nodding clarifying for me to keep going and that she is listening. Before I kept going I took a breath and then speak up.

"Which is you know... about my dad beating on me...He told me that...him and my mom should've aborted me from the beginning when they had a chance. Which hurt me because my mom didn't tell me anything and everything but she promised to protect me from anything but couldn't Fucking protect me from my dad." I say all in one breathe screaming the last part in anger but it made me regret it because she flinched a little. But she still remained composed and calm.

"I'm sorry sweetheart, come here" she said softly in a very comforting patient tone with arms open for me to go into. Which tears were already falling before I could stop them and I didn't notice it till i felt it come out.

I didn't even hesitate on going into her arms I honestly needed this more than anything.

maybe even get me out of that environment but this hug felt so meaningful and safe.

I had hugged her back, my forehead on her shoulder. Feeling the anger brush of my shoulders feeling like a ton of weight came off me as soon as I hugged her. I just kept on sobbing not being able to stop.

I honestly kept whaling and whaling letting the tears come out because holding them in felt unbearable. Where at the point I thought it would take my breath a way and hurt my head.

All she did was whisper in my ear comfortingly whispering sweet nothings to me. "Hey sweetheart I'm sorry, its okay, I know it hurts baby, just let it out, shhh, I know baby I know," was all she kept whispering making me feel okay to let my tears out. It felt like as if crying I'm giving her my pain and is taking it willingly  so that way I heal.