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Warning: sf, abuse,

Jasmine pov:

I wake up from my alarm today and i stretch every morning until i felt something on my arm and i look have blood all over me on my left arm from yesterday from cutting fuck i say to myself.

I head to my bathroom to clean the blood off and it was dry blood and it was a little bit so I just wiped it off and it just showed a scar.

I head back into my room and went to check the time on my phone and it's Tuesday 6:05 am. I decide to get ready and make sure to cover the cuts and bruises the best I can with my y2k clothes.

After I got dressed I put a hoodie on and as soon as I raised my arms up to put it on it hurt like a bitch. From the bruises on my stomach.

Next I grabbed my glasses so nobody could see the scars on my face. And I'm planning to wear this for the whole week so it could have a bit of time to heal.

Plus when I get cuts or bruises they always make my body look different and I turn insecure. And I end up starving myself.

After I head downstairs to the kitchen diner that's next to the kitchen and my little sibling are already eating. Including my mom that's eating and I see that on her hand she already has a scar from my dad.

Gosh it hurts me when I see my mama hurt and you can't do anything about it.

I fucking hate my father I hope he dies first. Then me.

I eat with my siblings and mother which was very quiet until my mom asked me

"why do you have shades on?"

"Nothing ma just eat pls" I say trying to be nice.

"Let me see. Now" she raises her voice a little when she said now and she might know a little on why I have my shades on.

I didn't say anything and just ignored her and my mom she wasn't having it.

She snatches the glasses off of my face and her reaction when she saw my face she stayed frozen. She looked at me worried as tears came down from her eyes.

I looked at her and say "mom, mom, please don't cry I'm okay" I smile at her to reassure her.

"Baby I'm sorry it's all my fault"

"Mom it's not your fault it's his fault stop talking like that"

"Baby your left eye is red and look at those scratches on your face, and your lip has been cut" she says as she looks down at the table to wipe away her tears.

"Baby this is my fault were still staying here even though he hurts us and that is not okay we should be gone already" she says as more tears come down her face and wipes them again and sniffles to stop crying and be strong for her children.

"Mom I know it's going to take time so I'm ok with it I'm strong I can take it."

"Baby you have no idea what he is capable of and you shouldn't be going through this and you shouldn't have to take things in Baby you and me and your siblings deserve peace not this pain and suffering"

Then my eyes get Wattery after she says that. I don't know why but what my mom said kinda hit hard. And she is right we don't deserve this pain. But my mom hit something in me as she said that I wanted to break down but I can't I have to be strong. My mom is such a sweet gentle strongest independent women I know so I have to be strong for her as well and I love her soo much and it hurts me to see her cry and go through pain.

I hate crying infront of others especially infront of my family.

"Baby come let me clean your face up"

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