The Road Ahead Of Us

Chapter 49

Wednesday, March 4th, 2020

Brenda's POV

Sam finally calmed down enough to talk about 30 minutes later. We moved to the couch.

"Mom called me, told me what happened. He got shot three times saving a bunch of kids and a pregnant woman."He said, staring at nothing. I ran a hand through his hair.

"I'm sorry Sam. I really am." Finn said, the others nodding. He didn't say anything, he just excused himself and went to one of the guest rooms. I didn't follow him at first.

"You're not going with him?" Blaine asked.

"I think he needs time to think by himself. I just, this is so shocking. I mean, I knew it could happen." They nodded in agreement.

"He needs you now more than ever though Brenda. Go be with him."Kurt said. I nodded and got up, going to the guest room. I laid beside him and wrapped my arms around him, holding him like he holds me. I rubbed his back and shoulders while he cried silently, whimpering every few minutes.

"I'm so sorry, Sammy. I know how much he meant to you."I said, a sob of my own managing to escape. Thinking about people dying just reminded me of my daddy and my grandma. Sam sat up and looked at me for a second, sniffed, then hugged me tightly. I hugged him back just as tight, the both of us crying together. Once we calmed down enough, he said softly, hiccuping,

"Aren't we supposed to be going back to Ohio today?" He asked.

"Yeah, but if you don't feel up to it we'll get the next flight tomorrow."I said, noticing that we'd been crying for at least 3 hours, and it was 9 PM."And I think we already missed the flight already."I said, wiping my eyes. He looked at me and laughed a little."What?" I asked confused. I looked at my hands and saw mascara all over them."I have makeup all over my face don't I?" I asked. He nodded." I don't care." There was a knock on the door and I called,"Come in!" Then, Rachel, Finn, Julia, Blaine, and Kurt came in. Rachel's eyes started watering when she saw how upset Sam was. She immediately rushed over to him and hugged him, and so did Kurt. Blaine and Finn sat on either side of me, and Blaine took a couple of baby wipes and wiped all of my makeup off, even though I had insisted that I could do it myself. Then he took a hold of my hands and wiped them too.

"What am I? Crippled?" I asked sarcastically and I heard Sam laugh, even though it sounded like he was laughing and crying.

"Gosh, you wear a lot of makeup. You're beautiful without it." Blaine said.

"I don't like how my face is so red." I said.

"I'd kill for cheeks like yours. I never tan, I burn. I look like a skinny tomato in the summer." Kurt said. Sam laughed again, and I smiled, happy that he wasn't as upset. At least, not showing it. I hate seeing him cry. All of a sudden, Sam laid on his stomach, the top half of his body hanging off the end of the bed.

"What the hell are you doing Sam?"Finn asked.

"Looking for the little furball-Oh, there she is." She ran into the room upon hearing him say 'Furball'. He started licking his face and he picked her up, sitting back up, this time, beside me. We sat in silence for a few minutes, which wasn't a good thing, because Sam's eyes started to well up and he put his face in his hands. I hugged him and rubbed his back again, rocking him back and forth until he was done. 

"God, I'm sorry." He said, wiping his eyes with the bottom of his shirt.

"It's okay, Sam. You have a right to be upset." Rachel said, rubbing his arm comfortingly. I put my head on his shoulder and he wrapped his arm around me.

"Are you hungry? We've all been back here an hour and it's past 10 o'clock."

"Nah, I'm fine-" I stood up and pulled him in the kitchen after the others. I made him sit down at the table and he sighed.

"You're eating."I said, giving him a look.

"Fine, but I don't want a lot. I'm not hungry." He said, resting elbow on the table and then putting his cheek in his hand. I nodded and gave him a plate with a little bit of everything on it. He sighed and ate it quickly, and fed Julia so that Rachel could eat. Once we were all done, we went to bed and I held him as he once again started crying into my shoulder. He ended up crying himself to sleep.