He's the one (Jack Gilinsky)

Chapter 5

-Amanda's P.O.V-

"Amanda! Amanda! Wake up!"

"Okay dad I'm up." I giggled. My dad sat in my bed, looking at 12 year old me.

"You don't want to be late munchkin." He chuckled and stood to get up until I tackled him. He flipped me over and started tickling me to death. My mom stood at the doorway looking at us.

I got up and ran downstairs. My dad caught me "Gotcha!!"

My scream could be heard next door, but I didn't care. He started tickling me again until my mom broke it up.

"I'm sorry but it's almost time for school."

"Okay. This isn't over" my dad winked and let me go.

I suddenly woke up and looked around for my dad. Then I came back to realize that it was just a dream. I sat in a deep sadness for a minute, then I just randomly started crying. I missed moments like that with my dad and I wanted them back.

After a little bit of letting myself cry, I got ready for school. I put my makeup on so it was hard to notice I was crying.

I finally got to my school and dragged myself in. Jack caught up with me and just looked.

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah. I'm fine." I forced a small smile and continued to walk.

"No you're not. What's wrong?"

"It's nothing okay? I just feel a little down today." Then he must've understood because he stood in front of me and hugged me. I was so shocked I couldn't even hug him back. I haven't been hugged in a long time. My heart dropped when he let go.

"I knew you needed that." He winked. Now that I think of it, that hug did make me feel better.

"Thank you." It grew silent and he smiled back. I could feel the glares being shot through me. I wasn't his girlfriend and it was a harmless hug.

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After school I decided to look for Jack. I searched everywhere until I saw him with a girl. I didn't know he had a girlfriend or whatever, but I felt this sudden jealousy. I turned away and started to jog. I didn't understand why I'm jealous but it'll go away. I hate feeling jealous over something that's none of my business.

I jogged all the way home. I went inside and thought about why I got so mad. It's not like me, I don't even interact with people. I got a text that brought me out of my thoughts.

Jack: Where were you after school?

Me: I finally found you but I saw you with a girl so I decided to give you some space.

I didn't want to come off as a jealous type but after I read it again, that's how I sounded. I sounded desperate for friends and I don't need people to rely on.

Jack: I'm so sorry she just came up to me and I got distracted. I tried to find you.

I honestly didn't believe him so I just ignored his text. I got too caught up with him and I just need to back up a few steps.

I began to do my homework when I heard the familiar knock on my window. I looked up to see who I expected, Jack.

He came in. He literally just texted me "what are you doing here?"

"Well you didn't answer so I came to clear things up."

"What things?" I was already irritated and he should give me space.

"You seem mad at me for the girl today." I shook my head and that only made him more mad.

"I know you're mad about it and there is nothing to be mad about."

"I never said I was mad. I gave you space because if I would've walked up there, she would've thought I was your girlfriend. It was a nice gesture."

"Bullshit. I know you just want to push me away and avoid me. Why the hell do you do that??" His face got red with anger. I felt bad for pissing him off so badly. So I decided to finally let it out.

"I wasn't mad.. But I push people away because I know how it ends. It ends with heartache and pain. And after losing my dad, I can't handle it. It's too much." I was on the verge of crying again. His face softened and he sat next to me.

"I'm sorry."

"It's not your fault. Im trying not to push you away." He hugged me and this time I hugged back. It felt so nice to be able to have someone to hug. Even when I did push him away, he continued to fight the pushing away.

"You don't have to be scared of me. I don't think I could ever hurt you." I smiled and he smiled back. He helped me a lot and I just caused so many problems. He was probably going to be the one to fix me.