He's the one (Jack Gilinsky)

Chapter 18

-Jack's P.O.V-

I was woken up by the door. I've never been a heavy sleeper but I got up. As I walked towards the door, I saw a note attached to it.

Dear Jack,
I am going home. I can't stay here and deal with my feelings. I don't know if I'll ever forgive you or if we'll ever get back together, but until then- I hope you focus on what you need to, Johnson. Don't focus on her, focus on your career and family. I'm sorry I couldn't stay to watch you and Madison be together but I need to be where I belong. I hope the best for you and Johnson.

Love, Amanda.

I got upset as I read her letter. That must've been her closing the door. I ran out of my room and down to the lobby. I saw her walking out the door to a cab. I hurried outside and grabbed her arm.

"Please stay. I'm sorry"

"I can't. You pushed it too far. Bye Jack" she sadly got in the car and closed the door. I tried to get the cab to stop but it sped off.

The last thing I saw was her looking back at me, crying.

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-Amanda's P.O.V-

I walked through the security scanners without it beeping and grabbed my things. I sat for a while until the lady announced the plane boarding.

A few hours later the plane landed in Omaha. I got off and turned my phone back to regular mode.

30 missed calls from Jack

A part of me felt bad but the other part wanted him to screw himself.

I called my mom to let her know I landed. She was waiting outside of the check ins.

"Hi mom" she hugged me from across her seat.

"Hey. I know what happened" I didn't tell her and I know Jack wouldn't.

She saw my confusion "your friend Johnson called me and told me. He knew you were coming home so he explained to me why."

"Oh. I'm sorry. I bet it's a stupid reason to come home though" she shook her head.

"I thought you didn't do enough. I would've murdered them both" we laughed and as she drove it remained quiet.

When I got home, I left my things downstairs and went up to my room. All I wanted was to stay up there and never leave.

Jack tried calling a few more times. So did the other guys but I didn't answer. It was just sinking in that he had done that, so the sadness was deeper.

Johnson called again so I decided to answer 

"Hey. Are you okay?"

"No. What are you doing?"

"Just hanging with Skate. Jack has been super upset ever since you left. It was funny because Thotison came by and he told her to leave. He even called her a stupid whore and more stuff like that."

"Thotison?" I chuckled "I'm surprised he did that."

"I'm not. He's really upset over you."

"Yeah I can tell. He's called me 35 times"

"Holy shit. Well I'm gonna go talk to him about it." We hung up.

I turned on my tv and tried to forget about him but it was hard. I really care about him and leaving him like I did really hurt me. I shouldn't feel bad because of what he did to me but I can't help it.

I was laying in my bed when Jack called again. Half of me wanted to decline it but half of me wanted to answer it. So I went with the answering side.

When I answered he sounded surprised because I haven't answered the whole time.

"Amanda?"

"What do you want?" He sighed and I could hear the mixture of anger and sadness in his voice.

"I don't want to be with Madison. I want to be with you and I'm sorry-" I cut him off.

"I don't want to hear it. You knew what you were doing and you still did it. I can't be with someone who is going to cheat on me"

"Amanda please" his voice changed a little and I tried not to give in.

"I can't do it. I love you Jack but I can't let you hurt me like that" and now I was crying. I hung up and my stomach turned. I wiped my eyes and curled up underneath my blankets.

My mom walked in and sat on my bed. "How are you feeling?"

"I feel like shit." She shook her head in disappointment.

"I really liked that kid. I never thought he would do this. I'm sorry honey" she got up from my bed.

"Want something to eat?" I shook my head. I didn't feel like eating. She gave me a sad smile and walked out.

I turned my attention back to the movie I was watching.

My phone started buzzing and I looked to see Brooke calling.

"Hello?"

"You okay? I've been calling."

"I know" I sighed "I'm sorry I don't wanna talk."

"Are you back in Omaha?"

"Yeah" and she hung up. I'm guessing she's coming over but I didn't want to move.

A little bit later someone knocked on my door. Brooke then walked in. She smiled and awkwardly walked over to my bed.

"Tell me what happened in Cali" oh yeah. She didn't know.

I told her everything. She was probably more mad than I was but she didn't react in any way. She moved the blanket and laid down next to me. She cuddled up like I did.

"I'm sorry Manders. I don't understand why he would do that. You deserve the best." I tried not to cry anymore. I was so sick and tired of crying today.

"Cry if you need to. I'll be here to talk" I gave her a side hug because she did so much and it's crazy.

"I don't get why he would want to leave me for her. She's so young and-ugly" I rolled my eyes. I know I'm not the prettiest, I know I'm not the best but her attitude and all of the fake shit she has makes her unattractive.

"I know. She doesn't have talent either" I snapped my attention towards her.

"How do you k-"

She cut me off "I looked her up on the Internet. She's terrible and I'm guessing she sucked a little you know to get the fame" she winked and I laughed.

We laid in my bed for hours just talking. I got a lot off of my chest and I felt a little better.

She looked at her phone "ah shit I'm sorry. I have to go to a dinner thing with my mom. Call me if you need me!" She got up and ran out of my house. Again, I felt alone.

I used to love being alone and now, because of Jack, I hate the feeling of being alone. Especially this feeling.