He's the one (Jack Gilinsky)

Chapter 11

-Amanda's P.O.V-

Today was the anniversary of my dads death. I felt really sad and I didn't feel like talking to anyone. I miss him and I wish I could have him back but I feel like he's happy. I hope he's watching over us.

My mom and I had planned to go to his grave to place flowers. We did this every year that he's been gone. We usually put a black dress on and went to put flowers or something on his grave.

My mom called me out to the car. We bought the flowers last night and I grabbed them for her. Around this time she would be super depressed. My mom and dad were like a couple that you only see in movies so it hurt her really bad.

We drove in silence the whole way there. This happens a lot during our drives to visit him but I always expected it.

When we finally got to his grave after walking for a mile. All I could do was look down at his grave. I laid down the flowers and began crying. At that exact moment I got a text. It was from Jack.

Jack: it's gonna be okay. Don't worry your pretty little face because I'll be over in a little bit.

I smiled and wiped away a tear. I didn't want any company even though the thought was nice.

Me: sorry. I don't want any company today.

It said he read it but he didn't reply. I probably made him mad and I felt super bad.

My mom walked down like the usual because she had her time alone and now it was my turn. I stood with my head down and I just sobbed.

"I love you dad. I hope you're happy up there." I laughed just thinking of him playing a video game or something.

I thought about random things. Was my dad proud of me? I mean I can't really ask him but my whole life I haven't done anything and I think I disappointed him.

"I hope I don't disappoint you either. That's the last thing I would want." I wiped away a tear and began walking over to my moms car. I sat in the car and we drove home in silence again.

Once I got home I just laid down. I seriously didn't want to do anything. I turned on the tv and began watching a movie.

After like an hour or 2 I heard a knock on my door. I figured it was my mom so I said for them to come in. It was Jack and he was carrying the biggest bag ever with a gaming console and games.

"Hello Amanda."

"I said I didn't want to see anyone today." He looked down at all of the stuff and looked back up with a smirk.

"You can't tell me you didn't want to see me today."

I tried holding back a smile "no. I don't want to see anyone."

"Okay well I'm still gonna stay and play my video games." He plugged in everything and sat down. He handed me a controller.

"I don't want to play." I tried handing him the controller back.

"I don't care. You better start playing or I'm gonna beat your ass in here." I rolled my eyes and played the game. Even though I didn't want to play I was still beating him. After I won i put down the controller. He stared at me, he wasn't mad or anything.

"You can't be mad that I'm here. You love me."

I shook my head "no I don't" I pointed to the door "leave." I tried to say it serious and he caught on to it. 

"Okay well what am I gonna do with all of this chocolate I bought? I mean I could give it to another sad girl that wants it." He picked up the bags and started to walk towards the door. He turned back and gave me a puppy dog look. I rolled my eyes and continued to look at my nails. He opened the door and I have a side look.

"Fine the chocolate and the games can stay." His face lit and he dropped the bags and jumped on my bed.

"I knew you couldn't resist me!"

I laughed a little "I told you to leave. I just want the food and games."

He winked "I know you love me."

"No. I don't."

"Say it now or I will make you." I crossed my arms. I wasn't going to budge.

He lightly pushed me so I was laying down and he sat on me and held my hands to my sides! He sat right on my freaking legs and wouldn't let me move.

"Get your ass off of me!"

"Say it!! I won't until you say it!"

"I never will" I was squirming the to get out of his hold but he was too strong. It got awkward when I stopped moving and he stared at me. For a second we just stared at each other until I wanted him off of me.

I rolled my eyes and scoffed "I love you, Jack Gilinsky" I said it with sarcasm and he got off me.

"That wasn't so hard was it?" I shook me head and gave a little short laugh.

We ended chilling and playing video games, but he brought up a weird subject.

"So have you thought about me? Like have you thought about us being together?" All I could do was sit there. I think about him a lot but I didn't know if I could be with him.

"I mean yeah I have but I don't know how it would work. I don't know." He paused our game that I was winning at.

"I'm serious about this. You may think of me as someone who is a heartbreaker but I really do like you. I'm serious."

"I-I don't know. I'm still trying to get over other things and trying to recover. I'm bad with relationships anyways."

"I believe that you'll fall for me. I'll make you fall for me, just wait."