Allegiant (Alternate Ending): I Won't Let You Go Again [DISCONTINUED]

Chapter 5: Lost

Tobias POV

I stomp towards my apartment and slam the door as hard as I can.

It's really hard to contain myself at times like these. I touch my forehead to a wall, trying to slow down my breaths.

I have to resist the urge of messing my apartment again.

That liar. He made everyone believe that he is under memory serum. That he is innocent.

I shout so loud, not caring who might hear me down the hallways.

I can't do this. I can't just continue living my life like this. I need her. I need her now.

Right now, I'm continuosly shouting, with all my force. I feel that if I shout too loud, all of my problems will fade away.

I shout until my throat is burning, and I feel hot tears streaming down my face. I sit down at the couch with my head in my hands.

I know I've never cry like this before. I never cry. But after the turn of events in my life that happened, what happened to her. I feel weak. I feel like the world is shattering without her next to me. I feel broke, and uncomplete. Lost.

I cry until I have no tears left, my eyes stinging. I feel myself fall asleep.

...

"Tobias, you have to continue living your life. You have to move on without me. You have to have your own family someday. I want you to be happy." She said tears brimming in her eyes.

"Tris... no..." i said. That was the first time I ever said her name, after what happened to her.

I kissed her so hard. My lips desperate for more. It felt so familiar, her lips on mine.

"You know I can't live without you. I won't be happy without you. I can't love anyone the way I loved you, Tris. You're my life. You're my everything. I love you so much, Tris." I say between our kisses.

"Please Tris," I said, begging her, "Please don't leave me."

She kissed me again, looked me in the eyes and said,

"I won't. I'm always with you." She said. "As long as you're in my heart, I promise I won't leave you."

She smiles at me and her eyes tell me that she meant what she said.

...

Zeke's POV

I hear a familiar scream echoing down the hallways and one person immediately pops up to my mind. Four.

"Hey, Shaun. Do you think you can handke it here just for a while? I think Four is having a temper tantrum again." I say to Shauna.

"Yeah, sure. I'll be fine here." She said.

"Okay. I'll be right back." I say and darted towards Four's apartment.

I knock loudly at the door for him to hear. No response. I had no choice but to kick the goddamn door out of it's hinges.

I see Four lying down the couch screaming, his eyes closed and tears are flowing freely from his eyes. Must be a nightmare.

"PLEASE. PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME. TRIS!!!!" He yells.

"Four! Dude! Wake up! It's just a dream, Four." I say, shaking him. It's no use. He keeps thrashing around. I hear a set of footsteps coming towards Four's apartment.

"Fou-- Zeke?! What's happening?" Christina said.

"Four's having a bad dream." I say.

"Tris! TRIS!!!!!!" Four continues to yell.

Christina walks up to Four, who is shaking and breathing heavily while sweating nonstop, tears pouring down his face. Christina gives him a hard slap and I have to stifle a laugh. Not now.

"FOUR WAKE UP!!!!!!!" She shouts at his face.

Four opens eyes and looks around frantically. He sits up and puts his head in his hands.

"Dude, you okay?" I say, putting a hand on his shoulder. He doesn't reply. Instead he gives out a loud sob and his whole body starts to shake.

For more than 4 years that I've been with Four, I've never seen him cry like this. He's crying so hard even though what happened to she-who-shall-not-be-named was 2 years ago. It's so hard to see him like this. Four is like my best bud. And it hurts me to see him like this. He keeps blaming himself after what happened to Uriah, but I know that it's not his fault.

"Four, calm down. It's only a dream." Christina said.

"Only a dream? That was a Nightmare, Christina." He snaps. He's been like that an awful lot lately. He's changed. I let out a heavy sigh.

If only she knew what was happening to him.