teenager habits | haikyuu

22.5

going to be so honest, this decision was SO hard for me to make

the first chapter of this fanfic was published on march 1, 2021

that was roughly 4 years ago

in the middle of me updating this fanfic, i hit the biggest writers block of my life. 2023 in general was just a really hard year for me personally and mentally

i wouldn't label it as "depression" per say but i truly just was not myself during that year and was deadass at my lowest

i also was just not into haikyuu anymore. i got into the anime late 2018/early 2019 and lost the spark for it mid 2022 but i really tried my best to enjoy everything about it

this leads back to my dreaded year of 2023

i did not enjoy this anime anymore. i did not enjoy haikyuu and i did not enjoy writing whatsoever and i did not enjoy my life at all

but i wanted to keep writing even though it genuinely felt like a job to me

i had SO SO much planned for this fanfic. i loved the plot when i first released it and thought this idea was going to be so fun!

and i did find it fun!! i would 100% write something similar to this fanfic again today

but truly as time went on, i genuinely lost the plot (like literally)

then came 2024

2024 was the year that quite literally changed everything. more specifically mid 2024 — when the haikyuu movie came out in the states, i went to go watch it in theaters with my friends. i wasn't expecting too much, honestly. i only went because it didn't feel right as an old stan to not watch

that movie changed my life and im not fucking joking

it got me back into writing again. my love for haikyuu resparked back in my body and i had the motivation to create again

this led to me completing a fanfic that has been ongoing since 2021 and even creating a new one

but unfortunately, i just did not feel like creating anything new for this fanfic specifically

i don't know why. i really don't. i didn't feel any emotional attachment towards this fanfic anymore and i wish i could tell you guys or give you guys a good reason but i don't have one

so i just want to say thank you to everyone who has kept up with this fanfic despite my very very inconsistent updating schedule

i wish i could continue this and have you guys at least see who ends up with who but unfortunately, if i do continue this it would've been half assed writing and you guys deserve more than that

this wasn't a decision i made overnight but months and months of thinking and pondering

so once again, thank you for loving my work and loving my version of the haikyuu characters that i hold so deep in my soul

im still going to be updating my 3 ongoing kuroken fanfics so please look out for that!

with much love, ren 🩶