Numb
Every word
Every syllable
I hear you speak but I do not listen
The constant pounding in my ears
I cannot hear
A watery substance collects at the bottom of my eyelids
It slides down slowly
Scorching the dry skin under it
It plops to the table
Silent to them
But it echoes to me
Louder than any action or word
Eyes full of concern
Except the ones most important
He stares
He sees
But all I get is empty covered walls
Not the same loved filled ones
Insults and profanities
jump from your mouth
And take a dive from the sky
Into my pooling eyes
Into my drowning heart
Silence is what I hear
Then the shuffle of feet
moving from me
Leaving us alone
In our bubble of lies
Our bubble of regret
Our bubble of questions never asked Questions never answered
He sits in front of me
And says things
Things of hate
Things of insanity
My lips are chapped
I'm not surprised
He always telling lies
I trust him
I love him
All the girls know
They say he loves me too
They say it shows
But it's moments like these
When we are all alone
Where his evil comes out
And he shoots low blows
But when he's done
He looks directly into my eyes
His walls fall
He says
You cried then in that moment
But you didn't let one tear fall
You let me
Break you
Hurt you
And tear you apart
You showed no emotion
When I know how you truly feel
You baby girl
Are stronger than you appear
He kisses my cheek
Hugs me tight
Then leaves me alone
for the rest of the night
The numb feeling is still there
But there is a buzzing warmth
And confidence in the air
I know now
What I have known before
I do not have to feel empty or alone
because there's always a friend
Behind close doors
Dark
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Heart of Moss
PoesíaThis is a book of my everyday life and what I feel. This is my life and I would love for you to live through it with me. It's from rants, to poetry, to just plain writing. It's bout whatever sucks ass or whatever is unbelievably awesome and whatever...
