Heart of Moss

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This gets no title.

I doesn't deserve one because I should not let myself get to this place.
To feel completely pressured.

To feel the need to be a lady

My mother can't stand the thought of me being myself
She always tells me to loose weight.

No boy wants to date a fat slob
No boy wants to kiss an ugly girl
No boy wants a girl who plays with boys

And my invisible father who is never there but feels the need to insult me whenever he can

Your fat
You make the house shake
You have no friends
Stop eating
Your stupid
You idiot

And then my so called friends

Your fat, put that down you don't need to eat
I can't see you having a boyfriend or anyone
He wouldn't like you your ugly
He only wants you for your body
Slùt
Bitch
Hoe
Ugly
Beast
Monster
Man
Boy
But your black we can't be friends
She's not like us
She doesn't fit in
She's not even that cute
Probably gonna get pregnant

And boys
She's a boy
Don't date her she's crazy
She's cool
She acts like a boy
She's ugly
She's fat
She talks like a man
She is a man
I regret ever meeting you
I regret ever dating you
She's a hoe
She's easy
She's annoying
Her laugh is ugly
Double chin
You were an experiment
Your not my type
Get out of my life
He doesn't like her
He doesn't love her
He's cheating on her
There's better girls than you
Just kill yourself.

And when he hurt me
He kicked me
He harassed me
He grabbed me
He cornered me
He didn't protect me
He let them touch me
He let them hurt me
He let them hit me
He let them talk about me
He let them grab me
He left me

All of them surrounded me
You can't fight them all at once

Why didn't you help me?
Why did you leave me?
Why did I have to fight alone?
Why am I alone?
Why can't I be happy?
Why can't I be pretty?
Why am I not good enough?

I can't escape it
Everywhere I go
I have no freedom
I'm never good enough
I'm so stressed
I just want it to stop

I want it to go away
Why can't it stop
Why won't it stop
Please make it stop

Just stop

Please

I just hate my insecurities.
I should never let it go this far
I should never hate myself
I try to be happy

But all I think about is things to torture me

Everybody wants to fix me

Am I broken?

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