Heart of Moss

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I used to see your sadness shine through your ocean eyes
Rushing with emotions but with a deep, sad, depth to them

How your silence spoke volumes
Your body language speaking so clearly to me
The way you brushed your hair or ran your fingers through your curls.
How you would observe everyone and stare?
How you would catch my eyes and stare just as long as I would as if we were both trying to figure out a question of character.
The way you positioned yourself in the room,
Head down
In a corner
But always had everyone in view

We played a watching game
We never spoke
Only on occasion and when we did it was always about stupid rumors
Or whenever we felt the need to make eachother laugh or maybe a reassurance or comfort.

I'm not really sure what it all, this relationship, was, not really friends, not really together, not really acquaintances.

We were the definition of
"it's whatever,"
Whatever we wanted it to be
At whatever time
We could flirt
Or hate eachother at the same time

But we had a watching game
I watched how you watched me
And you watched me watching you
And sometimes you would openly stare
And smile

What did that smile mean?
I'll never know

You never showed I was more
And you words only came every once and a while

It's time for me to let go of you
I never had you
Yet I feel like we've shared the world and our lives through glances
But it's time for me to let you go

I'm leaving
You are staying
She makes you happy
That makes me sad
But seeing you happy, reassures me that I won't always have to make sure you are okay

Seeing you happy makes me happy

Depression only comes some days for you

You'll probably never see this, I really hope you don't

But this is my official goodbye, to a beautiful boy who stole my heart.

Thank you for a year of butterflies, lies, smiles, and moments

Thank you for inspiration, and all the pain that came with it

You came into my life for a reason preparing me for something, so I hope I know what it is as soon as I see it.

And maybe one day I'll get to thank you in person, and see how your life has gone.

Because I wanna see the impossible happen,

You becoming an even better person