Plucky Thoughtfullness

Desperate

I want the flowers to never wither.

I want the nights to never end, filled with bass that makes me shiver.

I want endless summer. With naive hopes, delusional dreams and endless laughter.

I want that tan to never fade away, just like the freckles on my cheek and shoulder.

I don't ever want to grow old, nor my coffee to get cold and may all of my friends be neither.

I want my heart to heal completely from any damage that ever broke me, and I don't ever want to give it to anybody who won't put in the effort to even search for the key.

I want perfume that smells just like me and I forever want to remember the scent of anybody I ever loved, and who loved me.

I want my dog to stay young and playful and my parents and grandparents to always be healthy, happy and faithful.

I want to eat cake and cookies fresh out of the oven and I want to have a taste of every dough but without ever gaining any weight though.

I want candles to never burn down and to sit in my own silence without boredom.

I want my stomach to hurt from laughing and I never again want envy to be a thing.

I want to never get tired of good melody and to be the first to discover new songs, just to share them with everybody.

I don't want a single day going by without music that makes me feel high and I want to sing along without being shy.

I want to flow in that tingly feeling of being freshly in love and stay forever in it, with somebody who chooses to love me even more every minute.

I want the sky to never be grey - but purple and pink and orange and even black is okay.

I want to see the stars and the moon because they remind me that everything will pass by soon and he will again hold the colors of the prettiest sunset ever seen and I will become the happiest version of me l've ever been.

I want to reach inside my head and sort out every thought individually until it all becomes calm and quiet finally.

I want to feel free and be me, stop everything from feeling too heavy.

And I want my flowers to never wither but to bloom endlessly - desperately.