2015.07.22
00:31
Mood: "just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight,..." Just A Kiss by Lady Antebellum
Feelings: Hurt
Needs: a hung from Monster (at least...)
I feel so lonely and I have good reasons to feel that way. I've always been so Lonely and unwanted, but this time, it's not about not being so perfect to be loved, it's about letting people down. I let everyone around me down just because I loved monster, someone who can never love me. So I'm so lonely. No love.
Monster doesn't love me back, it actually hates me.
So I waisted my time and my life, trying to draw monster's attention, but didn't get it. I'm really ashamed of myself now. Monster is so different from me. I'm like it's dessert. I'm not what monster would ever need.
So,
Dear monster,
Sorry if I bothered you. I didn't mean to take your time or something. All I wanted was your attention and your love.
Sorry for thinking that maybe you might love me.
But thanks for all those days that you gave me hope and made me think that maybe I have chance with you. I will never change those days with any thing else.
Monster, hope you find the best person to love.
Love you, more than anything.
~Secret Admirer
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