2015.08.19
08:49
Sometimes I wonder, is it annoying or disappointing to people that I have changed a lot?
I mean, I don't hate it when other people change, I only hate it when special people in my life change.
My sister has changed a lot. Kinda annoying.
My mother has changed a little. Sometimes annoying.
My father has changed strangely. Pretty annoying, because it hurts both of us.
My friend changed herself so that she could be friends with somebody else, somebody new. Annoying as hell.
But now somebody else is changing quickly. Somebody super important to me. Somebody who I changed myself for. Monster.
Yeah Monster's trying to be girly. Yeah it's super weird. And seriously annoying. But what hurts me is not the changes, it's my 'guess'. Yeah, I guess something has changed in its life. I mean, like, somebody's entering its life. Somebody pretty boyish. And that means Secret Admirer is dead!
Bye bye me. Enjoy your life as a lonely person who has no hope.
See, even now that Monster's sitting right next to me, it doesn't care about me anymore. It's actually taking selfies! Yep, bye poor Secret Admirer.
Dear Monster,
I know you're changing and falling in love with somebody and I'm sorry for saying this but I hate these changes and this version of you.
Monster, I hope that person loves you too and more than me.
~Secret Admirer
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