Hate? or Mate?

Chapter fifteen.

I pulled into my driveway and got out of my car.
I walked inside and set my keys down.

This house hold so many bad memories. And they keep coming.

I looked at the wall where my dad bashed my head in. Then next to the TV, my dad beat me until I unconscious.

I am tired of living here.
Josh came into the house. And I was still looking around remembering when my dad had beat me.

"Mackenzie" josh said.

"Its mack, josh" I looked at him.

"Mack, you OK" I nodded.

"Pissy, but OK. My hand hurts like hell, why didn't that get healed." I unwrapped my hand. It was purple and blue, and had cuts everywhere.

"Let me clean you up" josh took my hand and lead me to my bathroom upstairs.

"Sit here" josh pointed to the toilet. I sat down as josh grabbed the alcohol.

"This is going to hurtl like a bitch." He dabbed the cotton ball on my cuts.

"God, fucking, holy hell" I yelled as he applied more. He just laughed.

"There." It hurt to move it. I tried making a fist, but whinced in pain.

"Don't try to do anything with it until tomorrow" josh said.

I nodded.
"I'm sorry" josh said.

"I know josh. Quit apologizing. I forgive you." I stood up and walked over to him.

"It was stupid, but at least we made it through out first fight" I smiled.

"I still feel bad" he looked down.

"Well, you should. But, its OK. I'm fine." I gave him a peck.

I went to walk away but bish grabbed my waist and pulled me back.
"I want a real kiss" he cupped the sides of my face. And kissed me.

"You smell like smoke and alcohol" I pulled away from josh.

"I'll go shower" he ran upstairs.

I still don't know if I'm making the right choice, by forgiving.
People make mistakes, I understand that, but what if I forgave too soon.

"Only you know when to forgive. Listen to your heart not your mind." Who the hell was that.

"Hello" I asked.

"Its the red wolfs spirit. I can talk I just don't. It makes me lose focus" I nodded my head and quit talking to her.

"God I miss scarlet" I mumbled.

I unlocked my phone and called kalleen.
"Hey, thanks for watching the girls. They got scared from all of the fighting" I sat in the chair.

"You okay?" She asked.

"I will be. We went clubbing and josh had a few, I just drank coke. Anyway I went to pee came back saw him kissing another girl. He said he didn't kiss back. And that it only lasted three second. I bad alpha bring me home. Then I punch a mirror, josh held me back and wouldn't let go, I screamed. So Gina started crying. Then I called you" I tried to talk without crying but thinking about it makes me cry.