One Day Mi Affi Win

43.

Excuse the mistakes!💀

FRIDAY, MAY 10

ANAYA'S P.O.V

Ryan has been emailing me nonstop for the past week, and it was honestly getting annoying.

Yuh only annoyed at the fact seh him only a reach out to yuh because him buck up in a yuh....

And I'm supposed to. Cause yaa go tell me seh afta mi deh here a worry mi self sick bout yuh, yuh deh bout yuh business well alright???

I'm gonna have to talk to Shane about this. He has still been good to us, but we just hadn't had sex since we were at the hotel. Plus, we were yet to talk about what happened there, so I'm trying to think of a way to bring it up.

I finished sending off the last coursework for the week before opening the tiktok app on my phone. Ryanna was sleeping, and Shane should be home any minute now. Shane's mom came to cook dinner, so I'll just reheat it when he comes home.

Bwoy idk why Annie and Anna nuh come off a mi for you page...

"Good evening," I heard distracting me from the video I was watching.

"Heyyy." I smiled, getting up from the couch to hug him.

He returned it and then told me he was going to change. I went to the kitchen to reheat dinner so he could get it by the time he got back. After a few minutes of waiting, I shared the food and set the table for us. By the time I was finished, he was walking into the dining room. He smiled at me, then took a seat at the table. The dinner stretched on in a long silence, which I noticed for a few days now, but I ignored it. I guess we'll have to have this conversation sooner rather than later. After dinner, Ryanna started crying, so I went to get her while Shane tidied the kitchen.

"What's wrong with my baby?" I asked Ryanna as I picked her up.

Instead of answering, she responds with a gummy smile, which cause my heart to swell with love for her. I went to sit and breastfred her but surprisingly she went back to sleep. After placing her back in her crib, I went to find Shane because I didn't want to put off this conversation again. I found him sitting on the couch scrolling through his phone.

"Can we talk?" I asked as I sat beside him on the couch.

"Sure," He says, closing his phone.

"I feel as if you've been avoiding me ever since what went down at the hotel. So, I'm gonna be the bigger person here and start the conversation." I stated, looking him dead in the eyes.

"I haven't been avoiding you. I was giving you space to figure out what you really wanted." He replied, sighing.

"Shane cut the bullshit. Remember all that you told me when we went to dinner at the hotel? If you wanted to give me space to think about what I wanted, why didn't you say something about it?" I asked, getting upset.

He took a while to answer, which led me to hiss my teeth.

"You're right, and I'm sorry. I just thought that because of how in love you guys were when you were together that you'd forget whatever had happened between us, so I just started to distance myself because I knew you were gonna choose him." He expressed.

"Shane, we're both grown. A simple conversation could've cleared things up for us." I sighed. "I have thought about what you've said, and it's best we don't ruin our friendship. In addition to that, my dad is after me for whatever reasons I dont know, I just had a whole child and most days I don't know what the hell I'm doing, plus I am uncertain about where my life goes from here, everything is just too much for me right now. This is not how I planned my life, " I sighed again, staring off.