The Walking Dead [Daryl Dixon]

Chapter 34- Opening up

~Daryl's P.O.V~

We were on our own for a long time now. Didn't run into people. Made me question things but I knew eventually we had to find someone. We never stayed in one place. We always ran. We ran and ran through the woods until we made it to the road and bumped into a car

"Come on" I said continuing to walk around the car

Just then we heard thunder rumbling. Beth sat inside the car trying to see if it would start. Nothing, I kept a look out but I knew trouble arrived when we heard soft snarling. It was getting closer, I opened the trunk and she jumped in. I went in after and closed the trunk. Slowly we heard ragged footsteps and soft growls get louder. It was damn got in here. Must have been a big crowd because they didn't stop for a long time. We could see the shadows moving along, thumping on the car as they passed. The storm was here. But as time passed the growling intensified, and the pounding became heavier. We could see the light from the lighting, I had my crossbow aiming at the trunk in case it opened. But thank god it didn't.

It must have been almost the whole night. When the storm stopped we heard the growling getting softer. She wanted to get out hell I did too it was hot as hell. But I motioned her to wait and she nodded. Soon we heard birds chirping. It was morning and there wasn't a drop of growling or shuffling feet moving around nearby. She untied the ropes that kept the trunk closed and opened it. The sun hit us with so much force. We climbed out of the trunk and finally were able to stretch our legs. We looked around and grabbed anything we needed.

This was a bust. Back on the road. We kept walking for ahwile and ended up in the woods. She stopped at the stop we were going to stay at. I left to hunt for a squirrel maybe, get some food. I looked around until I found a squirrel running along the trunk of the tree. I raised my crossbow and aimed, I pulled the trigger but the damn squirrel was too fast. I walked over to retrieve my arrow and noticed something. I bent the arrow and noticed it broke easily. Goddammit. I managed to kill a snake. Later on at night again she began to grow impatient. She kept complaining she wanted a real drink. Achohol drink. She got up and walked off with the knife. I followed her softly making sure she didn't see me. I noticed she threw something that distracted walkers that were wondering around. I slowly approached her and she jumped when a twig snapped, she tuned around and looked at me. I turned my back and walked away. Then she kept following me

"I'm pretty sure we got to go thay way to find the booze" She said

She bumped into the wall we made "What the hell. You brought me back"

I stopped and turned around

"I'm not staying at this suck-ass camp" She scolded

She flicked me off and turned around. I grabbed her wrist with a tight grip

"Hey! You had your fun"

She pulled and I let go of her wrist "What the hell is wrong with you? Do you feel anything? Yea, you think everything's screwed. You think Haley is dead that's why your like this. I guess that's a feeling. So you want to spend the rest of our lives staring into a fire and eating mud snakes? Screw that. We might as well do something. I can take care of myself and I'm gonna get a damn drink" She finished spitting in my face and walked away

Damn girl. We kept walking and walking. We ran into some bumps but ended up at a shed. I found this place with Michonne. Real booze. I poured her a real drink and she seemed to like it. We talked for awhile until she wanted to play some game. I played along for awhile until I got fed up. We're playing a game like this is real life, we aint.

"I'm gonna take a piss" I said standing up with my jar

I dropped the jar and it shattered. I unzipped my pants on the corner and began urinating

"You have to be quiet" She said quietly

"Can't hear you! I'm taking a piss!" I yelled

"Daryl, don't talk so loud"

"What, are you my chaperone now?" I asked

She stayed quiet. I zipped my pants back up and turned around to her "Oh wait, it's my turn right? I've never..."

I took a couple steps foward buckling my belt "I've never eaten frozen yogurt. Never had a pet pony. Never got nothing from Santa Claus"

I yelled knocking over the chair which made her rattle "Never relied on anyone for protection before except Haley, now she gone!"

"Daryl" She began

"Never sung out I'm front of a big group out in public like everything was fun. Like everything was a big game" I turned my back but turned back to her "I sure as hell never cut my wrists looking for attention"

Right then we heard thuds and growling

"Sounds like our friend out there is trying to call all of his buddies" I said kicking a jar and grabbing my crossbow

"Daryl, just shut up" Beth said

I approached her and grabbed her picking her up "Hey, you never shot a crossbow before? I'm gonna teach you right now. Come on it's gonna be fun"

I forcefully took her outside and pinned a walker against a tree. I put the crossbow in position with her the crossbow. Instead of her shooting she grabbed her knife and killed the walker. She was upset, hell so was I. I was worse, I had rage. We began to argue and yell at each other like crazy.

"The governor rolled right up to our gates. Maybe if I wouldn't have stopped looking. Maybe 'cause I gave up. That's on me" I felt responsible for Hershel's death. I could help but feel that way

"Daryl" She said trying to comfort me

"No.. and your dad. Maybe, maybe I could have done something. I left Haley, I left her. And I promised, I promised her I wouldn't leave her again" Right then and there I couldn't help it and I broke down

She hugged me from behind and I couldn't help it. I began sobbing and she only hugged tighter. I felt like just dropping on the floor and curl into a ball. Afterwards we kept going and found a house. Later that night we were outside on the porch talking. For the first time I actually opened up, about my childhood, and about Haley

"What if we can't?" I asked looking out

"You have to" She said and I looked at her "Or it kills you. Here" She said touching where her heart was

I just looked at her holding my knife and my knee against my chest.

"Do you really think Haley is alive?" She asked

I looked at her "She's gotta be. When I find her she's gotta be alive. She's the only person who makes me feel alive. I would die, because I can't live without her"

"I do believe it, I do believe we're gonna find her" She said looking at me

"We should go inside" I said looking out

"We should burn it down" She said smiling

I stood up and grabbed the jar

"We're gonna need more booze" I turned to her then walked into the house. Let's go find my baby.